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"Jeongguk? Are you okay?"

All there was is silence too loud. I know I had to break it.

"Why is no one talking?"

It's his trembling lips again and I can assure that something has happened, that there is something she did or said to him.

"You'll freeze. Let's go home—"

"Stay." I laid my eyes on the Queen once she spoke. It was soft, never stabbing me. "Stay just a little longer." But her words I know are directed to Jeongguk.

She stood up and I noticed how she disregarded her posture. With a hand slowly drawing nearer on Jeongguk's face, she steps closer, but I stopped her and told her to go back to the palace. She still insisted.

I know I have to let her so Jeongguk won't be mad at me. I watched as her palm gently sits on his face, tears on their eyes and I can't stand the scene. I looked at the ground and pursed my lips, asking God to get this over with.

"I remember now."

I had this desire to interrupt her words but I was freezing. She keeps on talking and all I could do was listen. She goes on and on about apologizing for fogetting him, for leaving him, for hurting him. She talked too fast like she wants to catch up on something, but no, she just wants to tell him everything she said she's supposed to. And I begged for this night to pause, or at least just them, so I could walk away.

I was fuming in anger because right now Jeongguk is too happy, too emotional, too complete all because of her.

And I was fuming in anger because no, she has never looked at me the same way she did at Jeongguk.

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It only took one night for V to feel so distant. He has been ignoring me and I asked him why but all I got was nothing. He'd just walk away.

I'm too happy to stay bothered though, because today I'd go to the palace and bring mum to our house. Maybe after that she'd get to know the reason why she has forgotten me.

Last night she talked to me about how much I grew up. V was listening, all of us were too immensed in the silent night.

I walked down the hallway and passed by V's room. He doesn't let me enter either and maybe it's because he hates the Queen but she happened to be my biological mother.

"I'm sorry," I whispered against the door, hoping he's awake for him to hear me. "I'll be right back."

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Jeongguk didn't know that V was following him, after all the boy still loves him and he promised to protect him at all cost.

Walking by the sunlight was the two, V smiled to himself, but bitterly. "You're even a human now."

V just keeps on trailing behind as Jeongguk lead the Queen. He can see the smile on his face, too happy as if the boy doesn't need him anymore.

"Let's say that she's yours, Jeongguk, but you can never be hers."

V doesn't know now of what he's actually feeling. One time he's jealous, one time he's selfish. But who can blame him? The heart always knows what it wants. His may not be beating, but it can feel and get the words right out from the mind.

Gritting his teeth as hard as possible, V finds himself walking away. Why does he always have to be the one to take in all the pain from doing so? Why can't Jeongguk understand anything of what he's feeling?

V feels unhappy as he stares at the beautiful orange curtain which he suppose has been hanging for over ten years now.

He tears off the material rather quickly. The sun is hitting him, and the God is cold.

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The guys were too angry because it wasn't the first time V did this. He almost burned himself to death.

Laying unconscious was that foolish boy who can't even breathe regularly. Jeongguk was seated on his side blaming himself for not knowing what exactly is wrong with the boy.

Jeongguk was crying again, for Pete's sake, how V wished he'd stop.

"He just needs to rest so his wounds would heal faster."

"He woke up a while ago."

Jeongguk stays silent, as if Seokjin and Namjoon hasn't talked to him. He then waits until it's just him and V in the room.

"Do you want to go to the hospital?" Jeongguk asks, and he was shocked to hear the boy answer.

"Hospitals are for humans. What do you think of me?"

"Baby, what have you done to yourself?"

The aforementioned boy goes back to keeping his eyes closed.

"How long are you gonna ignore me? Just tell me what's wrong and we'll sort it out."

V sighs, "I wish we could sort it out, but I'm too happy to care 'cause finally I can prove to you that she can't be my mother."

And then Jeongguk was storming out of the room. It was when V was able to go back to sleep.

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