Adrenaline. Phan AU

Chapter 6

As soon as Dan left, the tears came. Phil couldn't hold them back. He just burst into tears. He leant against his closed door, dragging his back down it until he was on the floor. He pulled his knees into his chest and allowed himself to sob. He hated feeling this way towards Dan. He really didn't mean to kiss him, he really didn't. It just happened. Dan must have got caught in the moment or imagined someone else or something because he kissed back too.

Phil hated himself so much at that moment. He had probably scared Dan off with the kiss but even if he didn't, he probably had just made things awkward.

What had he done?

The only way to forget about what had happened was to not mention it. Maybe then at least he could pretend everything was okay.

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As Dan walked home, his head hanging low and his hands in his trouser pockets, he couldn't help but think about what had just happened. Phil had definitely kissed back and Dan was fairly sure he wasn't imagining Phil leaning in too... So why did he sound so worried when they stopped kissing? Did he not like Dan? The questions made Dan feel slightly dizzy so he decided to just pretend that nothing had happened. He wouldn't tell Chris. He wouldn't tell PJ. And he wouldn't talk to Phil about it. It was for the best... right?

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It was hard for Dan to keep quiet about the kiss. He was desperate to tell PJ and Chris and ask them for advice but he wasn't really sure they'd understand. The day was almost over and Dan was so proud of himself for not mentioning the kiss at all that day but that didn't mean that he hadn't been thinking about it. It had been on his mind all day.

Dan hated to admit it but it was the best kiss he had ever shared. It had only gone and made Dan fall for Phil even more and his crush was growing by the minute. Phil's lips on his felt so good and Dan wanted so badly to feel it again.

Dan officially hated crushing. It made him sound so stupid. That's just what love does.. make you look stupid.

Phil hadn't talked to him all day which was both a bad thing and a good thing. A bad thing because it could possibly mean that Phil was avoiding him but a good thing because it meant that the awkward conversation following the kiss was being avoided. Dan was the worse when it came to awkward conversations; he would usually just blurt out the first thing that came into his mind and make things a hundred times worse.

Phil, however, couldn't be avoided all day because Dan had maths next. Yes, that's right maths. The lesson which Dan sat next to Phil in. The joy.

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Dan kept his head down as he entered the maths classroom. He noticed that the seat beside him was already occupied, meaning Phil was there. Dan held his breath as he sat down and took out his exercise book. "Hi, Dan." Phil muttered when the teacher started to talk.

"Hey." Dan mumbled in response. He couldn't even deny the fact that his heart was beating annoyingly fast in his chest. He was afraid that Phil would bring up the kiss and he hadn't mentally prepared himself for that conversation yet.

"You alright? You look kind of.. I don't know.. scared? It's a cute look on you." Phil chuckled, making Dan smile softly and calming him down ever so slightly.

"I'm fine and stop calling me cute."

"Why should I? You deserve to know that you're cute." It didn't seem like Phil was going to mention the kiss and Dan wasn't going to say anything either so things were going to stay normal. Great.

I think this may be my favourite book that I've written >.<