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I Whine And It Sort Of Helps

Okay so this is what I spend my holidays doing; watching videos of people, feeling sadly aspiration-al, and posting my thoughts on the interwebs. So in fact I did have a reason to gather you [all] here today, and that is to talk about things. Starting with I absolutely love that song pls. And, even though I heard it first on the radio and only discovered Lukas Graham after he hit the pops it does not mean my status as a fan should be valued any less, nor the songs' value, nor the artists' value. Just thought I'd put that in. On a sort of other note, I don't know how to paragraph, excuse me.

My life. Contrary to popular belief we all have one. And we all have aspirations, and no matter how small, they all count for something. My aspiration, well, one of them anyways, it to create music. I'd very like to be in a band, sings songs I've helped write, play the bass, have friends, love what I do. But I don't want to wait and all the people who have offered to be in a band with me either already have bands that I'll faithfully stan but are actually too cool for me, [and/or] live in a different/far away land from me. I'd love to make music right now. There are some problems though.

- Unfortunately fortunate I have an education that requires actual participation in various activies, thus filling up a lot of my day

- I want to create art in music, and everyone I know is like 10/10 legit emo and want to make hardcore music with screams and eyeliner and meaningful lyrics, which I'd love to be a part of, but I believe in music being a median for the soul and dam I sound so pretentious but yeah art. Basically I'm not cool enough rip

- I'd want the colour scheme to be dusty pink and white pls yes I'll design all the merch with all my expensive adobe [spon] products and I'll sell everything for cheap prices and make them the same price everywhere and not be offensive and make sure it's made economically and stuff yeah!

- I'd need to be completely alone I'm so eueeueuhehe to make anything and show it to people okay I could don the trademark Blurryface black hands and neck they apply to me

- Sometimes I like to think I can sing but I actually can't. I love singing, and all that comes with that, but, I can't. I've been told many times I sing flat and I can't handle that. I try and play it off but even thinking about it now it puts a weight in my heart so I don't know what I'd do if I did it as a profession. Probably collapse. Also I've been in choirs but I've never had proper training and ever since I got over a cold in like year 5 or something it hurts my throat to sing after a while idk I've looked it up and apparently I'm breathing wrong so I try to fix it and sometimes it works yay. Also I get phlegm a lot 10/10 not helpful. Also we never warm up our voices also not helpful. Also idk what my range is I've been both a soprano and an alto and I'm too eugfhruhg to use the youtube thing test whatever.

- I love poetry and writing it but I never like any enough to consider showing it to other people

- I can't actually play any instruments that well

- I don't have the moneez to pay for digital notation software

- or the attention span to watch a demonstration video on how to use garageband

- I'm smol like I'd have to wait until I moved out to actually be brave enough to do anything

- I can't deal with drama pls no

- This is considering we'd even make it big

- At least I'd make our world tour an actual world tour not just the US and some of Europe

- I live in Australia and I'd love to travel but I'm not moving mate

- I don't like photos very much

- I have about a billion other career paths [hobbies] I'd like to do

This sounds so bad oh my uh well wish me luck hopefully writing this all out will help me jump these hurdles one day have a nice one and follow your more reasonable dreams