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An Unfinished Ode To The Person I Want To Be

It's late and I've been procrastinating this, but I really want to talk about my future.

So, I don't know if you've figured by now, but I'm some sort of over-achiever. In the sense that I don't exactly achieve anything because I never get past the point of wanting. I'd love to do everything, if I could ever choose what to start with.

I've been thinking more specifically about what I want to do with my life HSC and university wise lately. Honestly, it's a bit of a mess. I logically should drop some things, but I don't want to, I logically should take up some things, but I don't want to. I want to study psychology, in some form, as well as neuroscience, in some form. I want to study language and words and its formation, and function, and philosophy. I want to study and practice music. I want to study quantum physics, and astronomy, and I want to know how to read tarot cards and tap into my spiritual side. I want to have debates and write long, winded papers on things I genuinely have an interest in, finally getting my words out coherently.

I want to be in the top 50 scorers for my HSC year, and go to that fancy meeting for smart people, I want to be a part of that fancy people-with-high-IQ-scores-club, I want to have an IQ of over 140, which is that of a so-called 'genius'. I want to be smart, be considered smart, in every way possible. I take IQ tests in my spare time, but I don't study for my school tests. I go through intense periods of inner turmoil about not being as good as my sister, but I don't actively do anything about it. I guess this is sort of my way of making myself do something. I want to make a change, but first I gotta get smart.

There's a lot more I have to say on this, but it's past midnight and I'm not thinking clearly, maybe I'll edit this later and add onto it. Bye bye, love you all!

Update: I want to do this https://breakthroughjuniorchallenge.org/?utm_source=Sailthru&utm_medium=email&utm_campaign=2016%20Breakthrough%20Junior%20Challenge%20FINAL&utm_term=BreakthroughJuniorChallengeStudents2016