Magcon one shots

Shawn x Taylor

I'm working on all those smut parts I promise. I'll have them up as soon as I get done. I am trying so hard to work. I wrote this one quickly, it's sad/happy. I'm sick......AGAIN. I am never not sick. But this time it's gotten bad.

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*Shawn's POV*
Why am I crying? Why the hell am I crying? I tried thinking of a possible reason why I was crying, but my mind was just blank. I felt so empty and alone, I just wanted to be loved. I wanted I feel love. I sat up and saw my reflection in the mirror attached to my closet. I chuckled lightly, "Why am I so ugly?" I asked looking into the mirror. I started laughing looking at myself. I pointed out all my flaws, my acne, my scars, the bags under my eyes from not sleeping. It felt like the world stopped around me. My fits of laughter turned into sobs. I grasped onto my pillow and fell back over. I felt my body start shaking, but I was still laughing. I felt so dumb for crying. The thought of cutting passed through my mind again. I laid there laughing and sobbing until I heard my phone go off, then I checked it. I saw it was my best friend Taylor "Why didn't you answer my message?" I read. I debated if I should reply or not. I decided to reply "hey sorry, I was doing stuff" I tried to stop the tears as I texted but they only came harder from talking to him. "What stuff? Shawn are you okay? I worry about you a lot" He texted. "No" I replied. My crying lightened a bit when I saw he was FaceTiming me. I took a shaky breathe and grabbed my headphones and plugged them into my phone. I slid the answer button and saw Taylor's face. "Shawn don't cry....why are you crying?!" He asked becoming upset. I didn't answer I only sobbed again, "don't cry, it hurts me to see you crying. I don't want you to cry, I want you to be happy," Taylor said. I took a few shaky breathes and eventually caught my breath. "Shawn do you want me to come over?" Taylor asked. "Y-you don't have t-to," I chocked out with tears still running down my face. "I'm coming over right now, and I'll stay on FaceTime with you, okay?" He said to me as he got up. I nodded my head and let more and more tears fall. "Why are you crying?" He asked walking out his front door. "D--on't know," I said trying to stop the tears. "It's okay Shawn, I'll come over and we can cuddle, how does that sound?" He asked. I nodded my head and sniffled calming down a bit. I shook trying to catch my breath and watched as Taylor pulled out of his driveway. "Close your eyes Shawn," he said softly. I listened and closed my eyes and felt more tears escape from my eyes. "I'll be right there, I'm 2 minutes away, okay?" "O-okay," I sniffled getting worked up again. I didn't know why but Taylor just made me cry more.  I wiped away the tears that were left and kept wiping away the fresh ones. "Shawn I'm gonna hang up because I'm right outside," Taylor said. I sniffled and nodded and he ended the call. I heard the front door open and Taylor voice came through the house. He was talking to my mom. I heard his feet tapping along the stairs as he ran up them. I took my headphones out of my eyes and set my phone down. I heard the door open and I opened my eyes. "Awwh Shawn," he said softly. He shut the door and climbed into bed next to me. Before I could say anything he pulled me into him and rubbed my back. I reached for his free hand and locked my fingers with  his. "You're okay Shawn, I'm right here by you," he said. His words were soothing, they made me relax almost instantly. I took a few more shaky breathes and sniffled. I looked up at Taylor with sadness in my eyes. "Hey I'm right here, I'm right by you, everything is okay," he said and kissed my head softly. I snuggled into him and kissed his neck lightly. Everything in this moment just felt so right. Everything was just perfectly in place. I felt the love I was needing to feel.