We're Not Speaking The Same Language. - Min Yoongi-

Affection.

I was backstage waiting to perform. I had everything ready, but I liked spending a few minutes in my dressing room, before going on stage. There was a knock on the door and I call back to come in. In enters Yoongi. "Oh hi." I smiled. It's been a month since our final decision and we've been hanging out at least any moment we could. He's been very caring and always checking on me. I planned on telling my members tonight and he knew. He was very supportive today. "Did you eat?" He asked. "Yeah." I said. Lately I haven't had an appetite and he's been concerned. If I'm not hungry, then I'm just not hungry. 'But you must eat for the baby, remember you're hosting for 2 now' I remembered his words. "Yeah, what?" He asked. "Fruit." I said, he doesn't really know many words for fruits so I kept it short. "Oh, no more. You more. You need it." He said. "No I'm good." I said. "No, not good. Bad." He said as I began putting on some lip balm. "Oh, mine dry. Give me some." He said. I chuckled at how he was improving slowly. "Sure" I go to give him the Chapstick. He paid no mind to it and just leant down (I was in a chair) and kissed me directly on the lips. I was stuck and kissed back. He smiled. "Thank you." He said. I was so surprised but just nodded my head. We haven't been affectionate at all. Only just caring but not as if we were a couple. More so friendly. That moment changed a lot. It was strange. This was our first sober kiss and it made me incredibly nervous and fidgety. What does this mean? I mean, I know he likes me as a person and friend, but this is different. He changes the subject quickly. "Good luck." He says heading toward the door.

"Please be good." He says and I nod, knowing he meant "be careful" he left and I sat there in a moment of awe.

After performing, I was tired. Not my usual tiredness. This was very tired. This was different and I felt sick. I just wanted to be in bed and alone. Aurora sat next to me as we waited in the car to leave. "I swear V, is a pervert. I mean maybe it's just me, but I can tell." She says. I giggle. "What're you talking about?" I asked. "He's 'accidentally' touched my boob 3 times and 'accidentally' touched my butt four times. In one day! And every time I get ready to go off he gets all cute and innocent. 'Oh oh no. Sorry, sorry mistake.' Sorry, my a**. I know what he's up to." She explained. "You're saying it like you don't like it, Aurie." I said. She rolled her eyes. "I do, I just wish he'd be more of a man about it and be upfront-" "Shut up and stop complaining." I say laughing. "So what's going on with you and Suga. Isn't it kinda awkward after you two had that one night stand?" She says and I think of a way to change the subject. "It's kinda awkward, but man how long are they going to take to load up the trailer?" I replied. "I don't know, but they're taking forever, as usual." A couple more minutes went by and finally everyone was all ready. BTS has a very strict management and they must know where they are at almost all times, unless they're on break (sometimes even then). I was trying to get back to the suite. BTS happened to be staying in the same building as us, so Nicole invited them to our show, even though they were supposed to not go very far tonight. So we needed to get back at a certain time. I was surprised that Suga even came along, considering how he enjoys doing nothing on his time off.
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I had taken a shower and gotten ready to lay down. Aurie, Nicole, Cynthia (Nicole's cousin), Cyrus (Cyn's sister), Suga, Rapmon, Jimin, V, and Jungkook were all hanging out in the main room watching some movie. I decided that I would just tell them another day. I would sleep now.

Before I could actually go to sleep, there was a knock on my door and in walked Yoongi. "Oh, are you sleeping?" He asks. "Oh it's alright, not yet." I say and he closed the door. He sat on my bed, searching for something on his phone. "I want to show you this." Finally, he gives me the phone. "See?" I nodded, staring at the image of a baby's nursery. It was a girl's room and very adorable. It seemed expensive though. "You like?" He said. "Oh yes, but..We don't even know the sex." I giggle. "Hm?" He says, asking for more clarity. "We don't know if it's a boy or girl." I said. "Ah," he puts a finger up. "Next week we will know it's a she." He said. I roll my eyes. "You don't know that. It can be a boy." I said. "No, girl." He insists. "She be beautiful like you." He said softly. I thanked him, feeling my cheeks heat up. "I want a boy." I said not allowing it to die down. "Too bad." He replies, taking his phone back. He kissed my cheek. "Now sleep. I will go now." He says and I take notice of how much better his English was getting. "Good night." I said as he left.