We're Not Speaking The Same Language. - Min Yoongi-

Min Kaelan.

November, 12, 2016

-4:32pm-

It took me a while to realize that the moment had finally arrived. Yes, I felt the pain and contractions, but the first time I thought I went into labor it turned out to be a combination of gas and cramps instead. Yes, I felt the fluid leaving my body, but I assumed maybe I urinated on myself. It's common for pregnant women, don't judge. The last thing I thought was that my water broke, but that's just what it was. It was at the worst moment too. I had already told my parents about my pregnancy two months ago, but my father couldn't wait to see me in person just to tell me how disgraceful it was and how I continue to embarrass the family, then he asked about the father and really flipped then. My mother was more than annoyed by his actions. For some reason, he wasn't fond about his grandchild being of Asian descent. Did it matter? No, but he was an ignorant person. I went into labor in the middle of a screaming match with him. Yoongi's concert had just started, so no one could get a hold of him and everyone was panicking. Except me. I was more than afraid on the inside, but I stayed calm. As calm as a female in labor could be.

-10:24pm-

It took forever until I was completely dilated and by that time MinYoongi had arrived. I had been in labor for 6 hours now and I just wanted it to end. I was damn near at my peak. As soon as I saw his face, I wanted to harm him. I wanted him to experience what I was being put through. After all this was his fault. "Get the f**k out!" I shouted and he looked around, obviously confused as to who I was speaking to. I was more than emotional. I felt so terrible and done for. This was the worst pain I'd ever experience. My body was burning with pain and I was very hot. I'm sure my sweatiness made me look even more unattractive. "Yoongi get out. I hate you!" His eyes widened, while my family (Sister and mother) turned to look at him, realizing who he was. He avoided looking at them. They'd never met. "Calm down." He says...What a mistake. "Don't you tell me to calm down! You did this to me. I seriously hate you." I spoke lies, I was only finding someone to blame for my predicament. His face softens as he places a cold hand over my forehead. "I know. I'm sorry." He says. Hearing his voice made me soften a bit and almost lose my anger toward him. He kissed my forehead and held my hand in his. "I'll stay right by you the entire time." He spoke in Korean and I didn't bother to try and translate it in my head. "I love you." He said. This was the first time I ever even heard him say the word "love" in any language at all. "I love you too." I respond, in more of a whimper, unable to hide the pain. He smiled, seeming surprised that I understood. "You're so..very strong and brave for this. I am proud of you." He says. I felt another flow of pain erupt inside of me. I scream causing him to flinch, but he didn't let go. He sighs. "I'm sorry." He repeats. I knew sh** was about to get real. It was time to push.

One hour later

Min Kaelan:

Gender: M
Born: November 12, 2016 11:25pm
Weight: 3.129 kg (6.7 lbs.)
Length: 20 in (50cm)
Birth place: Seoul, South Korea -Cheil General Hospital

Mother: Saorsa Armani Michaels
Father: Min Yoongi

I wasn't too fond of the name Kaelan, to be honest. Yoongi seemed to like it though and I actually like the meaning of it: Thin. He was tiny and small even for a new born. He was actually really quiet. The doctor had to tap his bottom a few times until he cried just to make sure he was okay and he was. I on the other hand passed out after giving birth. Apparently I was dehydrated and didn't take in enough fluids, but within 7 minutes I was fine again. I still only wanted to rest, so I went right back to sleep.

"He is very little. So tiny and thin. Is it okay..normal?" Yoongi's voice had woke me up. I open my eyes, my whole body sore and worn out. I was surprised to see him interacting with my mom, who was holding the baby. "The doctor's say he's healthy and perfect. He's just a little guy. Probably gets it from you." She said. "Me? What from me?" He said. "You're tiny." She chuckles. "No." He said. "You can deny it all you want." She replied and all he could do was blush. She sits up and goes to give him the baby. He moved back so fast, it's probably the fastest I've ever seen Suga move. He juked the hell out of that woman. She stared at him in disbelief as I held in a laugh. They seemed unaware of my presence and I liked that. "Son, if you don't take your baby." She threatened. "He's so little. It's scary." He said. "It's alright. You won't drop him..right?" She replied. "I don't know. I think I will. I can't. No." He stammered. She rolled her eyes. "Sit." She appoints him to a seat and begins to explain how the baby should be held. Repeating to protects his head. I had never seen the man so nervous. "Okay. Okay." He repeats to himself. He began mumbling in Korean until he finally had the boy in his arms. His eyes wide, but soon his heavy breathing calmed and so did he. His expression softened as he stared at the baby. His smile was sincere and adorable. "Kaelan.." He spoke finally. "Kaelan?" My mom repeats. "Yes. It means tiny." He said. "You'll have to take that up with Sao." She says. "I like it." I spoke up. "Aw you're finally up. Want something to eat? I'm gonna head out, but I'm coming right back I can pick you something up." She says. I didn't want any kind of Asian food right now. I missed western food and had so many cravings. There were times when I'd have my mom ship me certain foods or ingredients all the way to Korea. "I'm not really hungry for anything here." I said. "I brought a bunch of American snack for you," she smiled. "Or if you want I could cook you something back at the place you're staying at. I brought some things from home." I had never been so thankful. "Yes please!" I said. "Okay it'll be a surprise." She says before leaving. "Let me see him." I said to him as he played with his fingers. He didn't hear a word I said. "Suga." He looked up. I smiled at the precious moment. He smiles back and stands up, sitting in my bed. "Can I see him?" I asked. "Oh, oh yeah." He very carefully gives me the baby. "So Kaelan? Like officially?" I said. "Yes." He spoke, staring at him. He was very tiny. I smiled down at his little face. He still hasn't kept his eyes open. All he did was sleep. "Um we have to go to Daegu in at least 3 weeks." He said. "Where is that?" I asked. "It's my city. My family is there." He spoke softly.