We're Not Speaking The Same Language. - Min Yoongi-

These Things Happen

This was bad.

No, this was terrible.

"It's okay, alright? These things happen. It's just something that you'll have t-"
"No. These things do not just happen. Not to me.." I shook my head, crying hysterically.
My doctor, Dr. Doris seemed as though she felt bad. She shouldn't though. None of this was her fault. "This may seem like an early question to be asking, but you are three months...Are you sure if you're going to keep it? It's always best to have an abortion in the first trimester due to-" "Abortion? No. Of course I'll keep it." I said, immediately ignoring what she had to say. My phone rang, Aurie was calling. "Sorry." She nodded, excusing herself. "Hello?" I said. "Was it food poisoning?" She asked. "Well-" "Told ya, I called it." She giggled. "Um..It's n-" "Are we going to have to cancel the show, or can you make it?" She asked. "No, I'll be right there." I replied. I hung up and wiped my face.

I never ended up making it to the show. I felt bad, because Aurora had to perform with Nicole, without me. I'm sure they did fine though. We'd be in Korea for 3 more months. So I'd be here for half a year. I had so much to think about, but at the same time couldn't really think at all. I needed to find a way to tell my parents, to tell management and my own band mates. I needed to tell him. The green haired boy, with the dark eyes and mysterious facial expressions. The boy who always seemed so spaced out.

I began doing my research. After my birthday night with him, I had found out that he was a kpop idol. He and his group, Bangtan Boys belonged to Big Hit and were all very different people. I learned that Suga, Min Yoongi was his birth name, seemed to be the most low key, chill one of them all. He was actually a lot like me in ways. I didn't like that very much, but he was also very very different. He was like a fire. A fire in the middle of dark woods, and I was a moth among millions of other moths, attracted to his light, knowing I'd only burn myself and surely die.

Maybe I was just being dramatic.

The point was that he seemed untouchable. Like feelings and emotions just didn't apply to him for now. Like he'd rather not settle down. I wasn't looking for that though. Although in a way I was hoping he would be the type. Maybe if he were, he'd be more open to learning that he was soon to have a child.
I didn't really know how to go about it. I knew where he'd be, because he had tweeted about it. I couldn't just walk up and say "I'm pregnant." Not because it's alarming, but because I don't know much Korean. So instead I went about it the safe way.

I contacted CL, she contacted Namjoon, making sure it was okay to give me his number. I didn't try to give her much information on why I needed it. He was okay with it though.

Namjoon speaks English well. This would be much easier for me. To be honest I held onto his number for 2 days, before actually contacting him. I was anxious, but afraid.

I finally called the number, hoping he wasn't busy. "annyeonghaseyo" I froze. "Uh..English, please?" I asked politely. He chuckled. "Yeah, hello. Who's this?" He said. It was him. "Saorsa. CL had told you-" "Ohh yes. How are you?" He asked. "I'm alright. Thanks for asking, but um." I pause thinking of how I should come off. "Is there anyway that I could maybe meet up with you and Suga too. I have to talk to him about something important but I'm not sure that I could translate it right. It doesn't have to be today, but like sometime soon, please? Only if that's alright." I could tell he was confused and curious. "Uhh yes. Of course. Actually, we have a fan signing and then we're going to eat somewhere later. The rest of the boys will be there too, if you'd like to you can come." He suggested. "Oh sure when?" I replied. "It ends at 8. So before 9 I can text you where to go." He said. "Thank you so much." I said. "No problem. Could I ask what it's about?" He said. "I'd feel more comfortable saying it in person, honestly." I said. "Oh, okay no worries. See you later." He said. "Alright. You too." I hung up quickly.

I needed to throw up.

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