Supernatural preferences

Suicidal Reader Preference (trigger warning)

Before we start, I would like to say that you are never alone. I am still getting through this, but I know I will make it. You can get through this as well. I love you all.

This one is even hard for me to write. So I am only doing Castiel, Dean, and Sam.

Castiel: You haven't been feeling like yourself lately. You'd usually talk to Sam, Dean, and Cas. You trust them. But this time you were having trouble communicating your feelings. You felt like it would be easier to just end it then to talk about it. You didn't even write a note. You looked around the room, and you were met with Castiel's angel blade. You picked it up, and took a few deep breaths. You held it steady in front of you. You decided where you going to put it. You couldn't slice your own throat, it was too much. You held it to your stomach and put only the smallest amount of pressure on it, when suddenly Castiel appeared in front of you. You saw his smile fade. His hands ripped the blade out of your's. He put a hand on your cheek, and wiped your tears as his tears fell upon the sleeve of his trench coat. He told you he loves you, and that if you went, so would he. He told you to come to him with these problems, and he will do the best he can to help you. You felt loved. You no longer felt worthless. You now come to him with anything.

Dean: You knew they were on a hunt. All three of them. You felt like a burden. You didn't want to interrupt anything just because you were having these feelings again. You wrote a note to let them know how much you love them and how sorry you were. You signed it with a heart after your name. You picked up the gun that Dean had given you, and immediately broke into tears. Little did you know they were on their way home by the time you started planning this. As you put the gun to your head, team free will busted through the door. Dean called out your name. He had no clue what was going on. You ran out of your room and into Dean's arms. You were crying harder than you've ever cried before. He asked you what was wrong and you led him to your room. He read the note and examined the gun. He broke down crying and hugged you so tight you could barely breathe. Still sobbing, you two got into bed. Hugging and crying, you both fell asleep like that.

Sam: He kept asking you what was wrong, but you wouldn't answer. He was growing more and more worried about you. He went into the bathroom and found an empty pill bottle with a note inside. He pulled it out and all it read was I love you Sammy. He screamed Castiel so loud that you winced. He explained what was going on and Cas healed you. Sam clung to you and cried, but you just felt empty and hollow. He fell asleep clinging to you. You realized just how much you love him. How much you love all of them. How much you love being with them. Being alive. You whispered in his ear that you will never leave him. You'll never leave him.