A Long Lost Friend / Riker Fanfic

Clean Slate

Kayla's POV 

Riker keeps looking at me waiting for a answer. I think we need to have a talk. I don't know how we are going to say this to him. But my conscience needs to be cleared.

"Riker we need to get everything out in the open. Start over, without any anger or anything alright? " he stares at me,

"Are you sure you're okay?" He looks at me with concerned eyes.

"Baby I'm fine. It's just that dream, it was something that happened a long time ago. Except, it was mixed with the present, and it wasn't exactly how it happened in my dream." He is still looking at me with concern. He nods his head as he agrees.

"Okay Riker...." I pause.

"Um, this isn't easy for me to say, but in my dream. I was screaming for you because I didn't want you to leave me because..." this is to hard.

He pulls me close and rest my head on his shoulder.

"Baby, what ever it is you can tell me. I promise I won't get mad, I definitely won't leave you. Just tell me okay" his voice was soft. I take a deep breath and say....

"Riker, I was pregnant before now." I couldn't continue. He pulls away and looks at me.

"What do you mean you was pregnant before this time? I thought you didn't sleep with anyone else" I could hear hurt in his voice.

"I didn't.... Riker that night in the cabin. I got pregnant. Before you say anything, I didn't get an abortion. I had a miscarriage, I was so stressed out that I caused myself to loose the baby..." I couldn't go on, I got up to leave with tears in my eyes.

He grabs my arm and pulls me into his chest. I could feel his tears hitting my shoulder. He just stood there holding me tightly against him. He finally pulled away and brought me over to the bed and we both sat down.

"Kayla. I'm not mad at you, I'm not going to leave you. Yeah it hurts, but with this pregnancy we're going to keep you stress free. Alright? This is all we're going to say about this and we're going to leave it in the past..... that morning at your house, after we had sex... is that what you was upset about? Is that why you ran out of the house?"

"Yeah.... I really wanted to tell you Riker. I'm so sorry, I felt so bad keeping it from you. But I just wasn't ready to talk about it then. I'm so sorry. No more secrets from now on okay?"

"Baby, forgiven and forgotten. We're starting over. A clean slate, it's fine. Lets lay down for a bit okay?"

"Okay baby, I want you to hold me."

He smiles at me. We lay down and I curl up into his chest. I'm happy he forgave me and understood why I just could not tell him. He's amazing, even after this he is still here holding me. I love him so much.

I want this to last forever, him and me and our family. I want the perfect life, something I have never had in my life. I want it to be us with no crazy ride along with it.

"Kayla." He gently says.

He sits up pulling me with him. He looks me in the eyes, gosh, his eyes could make a girl melt. There so big and beautiful, and his long eye lashes. He's so perfect. He starts to speak again.

"Baby, I love you more than life itself. I want to show my devotion to you, and only you. I never want to have to wake up without you by my side unless it's you in the hospital giving birth to our son or daughter. Right here, right now, this is going to be our beginning, a whole new chapter of life for us is going to begin." He gets down on one knee.

"Kayla, will you marry me?" He pulls put a box with a huge diamond ring inside.

I was so overfilled with happiness. I started crying, with tears of joy of course.

"YES!!!" I scream.

He places the ring on my finger. I pretty much tackle him to the ground, and start kissing him. He put his hand on my waist kissing me back.

"I love you so much Riker! I can't wait to be your wife." I had a huge smile on my face that wasn't going to go away any time soon.

"I love you to baby. Nothing will ever change that. Trust me I can't wait till you're my wife. I love you so much!"

"I love you to Riker." I say before I begin kissing him again.

Today was a crazy, buy unforgettable one. That is for sure. I get up off of him and get back on the bed. He of course follows, we just lay there. No sex, no talking. Just laid there in each others arms. Just us, the rest of the world just seemed to fade away. Gosh, I love this man.