Complicated

Dirty little secret

I got up and walked to the door. I looked in the mirror to fix my hair and try and look as smart as I did this morning.
"Hello ni-" I look up. "Simon?!"
"Hi Harley.."
"What are you playing at? Your gonna get me in trouble! I have a patient coming round soon!"
"I am the patient.. I need help."
"Fine." I sat on the sofa and Simon came to join me. I looked away and smiled to myself. I was so excited. But I didn't want him to know that.
"Harley.."
"So what seems to be the problem sir?" I said ignoring him.
"I'm in love.."
"And thats a problem because?"
"I can't have her. I want what I can't have. She's too good for me."
"You don't say?" I smirked and lifted up my eyebrow.
"She's in love with my best friend. And I'm so jelous. I have my own girl friend.. But every time I see her I think of har- this girl.."
"Would you ever talk to this girl?"
"Well I am now. Aren't I?"
"Si-"
"Listen. I want you. You make me feel special. Like I've never felt before. You make me forget about all the bad things in my life. Sure I have Jess. But she isn't you. She doesn't make me feel the way you make me feel. I need you."
"Simon. I need you. I want you too. And of course I have feelings for you. But I'm with Josh! I could ruin your friendship! I don't want to do that. And what about Jess? You can't do this to her!"
"And what's it doing to me? Huh Harley? It's killing me seeing you with Josh every fucking second of the day. Wishing that I was Josh 24/7. Wishing I found you first!" I looked down at his wrist.
"Simon? What the hell have you been doing?" I lift up his wrist and press on it softly.
"Ow! Be careful. It hurts!"
"Then why do this to yourself in the first place?" He had been self harming.
"Because it hurts more than seeing you with Josh. It reminds me that you and I are never gonna happen.."
"Simon! You need to stop this! It's making everything worse!" Tears started to run down my face.
"Harley! Don't cry!" He pulls me close to him and I rest my head on his shoulder.
"Simon. Please stop. For me?"
"I'll try. I'll try and find something else to take my mind of it."
"Listen. Why don't we go out? Right now. We could go out for dinner or out in my car and watch the sunset?"
"Yes! Of course! I'd love that."
I'm happy he said yes. I love that boy so much. What about Josh I hear you say. Well I love Josh too. I'm so confused. There's so many complications to our relationship. I feel like a bad girl with Simon. Like I'm finally breaking the rules..
I put on some different makeup because after I'd been crying it was never a good look.. I put on my usaul clothes (my adidas crop top, shorts and trainers) and put my hair back in a messy bun.
When I was done he grabbed my hand and we ran to my car. Simon opened the car door for me and I got inside. He then joined me however he was the one driving. We decided to go to a place where you can park the car and watch the sunset or the stars? Like in the movies? It was so romantic. Me and Josh hadn't gone on a date yet. And with me and Simon it felt real. He put his hand around me and I rested my head in his shoulders. We watched the sunset and it was beautiful. We then watched the stars together. He then made his move. He moved towards me and I moved towards him. We started off just gentle making out and then it got rougher and rougher by the second. We didn't do anything more because we were in public.
"Harley.. What about Josh and Jess? Is this what you want?"
"How about you can be my dirty little secret?" I smiled and bit my lip.
"Sounds good.." We continued to make out and soon it got late-ish so we drove back home. He dropped me off at my flat and then used his car to get back home so no one suspected anything. All except Lia. I walked through the door smiling.
"You were meant to finish work 5 hours ago! Where have you been?"
"No I wasn't. I was at work. You must of got the times mixed up."
"No. I didn't I wrote it down? Have you been with Simon again? I swear imma chop his dick off."
"Calm down! Of course I haven't been with Simon!" I smiled awkwardly.
"You have haven't you! Harley! What about Josh? I told you to stop!"
"Lia. It's fine. It's not what you think! We didn't have sex and Simon was just my patient!"
'Is that what you call people you have sex with now? Oh. Sorry."
I giggled.
Simons POV:
I sent Harley a message that night. I saved her name as
'Baby Girl 💞' the message read:
Hey. I had a really good time. I really like you and I hope we can carry this on? X
I smiled down at my phone. Me and Jess were in my bedroom. And Jess was hugging me. She sat on my lap and kissed me.
"Jess? Stop!"
"What? You afraid?" She giggled and bit her lip. She layed on top of me.
"No I'm being serious! Go away." I pushed her off of me and sat up.
"What the hell?"
"I'm sorry Jess. I'm sorry I'm not constantly in the mood for sex. Unlike you."
"Excuse me?" Harley sent a message back.
Hey I had a nice time too. Just as long as we keep you and me a secret. Just for now? X
I smile at my phone wondering what to text back. I've never been so excited about someone texting me.
Fine with me. When will you leave him? When can me and you be a real thing? X
I waited for a response.
"Hello? Are you listening to me? Ugh."
"Jess do me a favour and sleep on the sofa. Thanks."
She gave me a dirty look and left the room. She slammed the door. She was angry. Then my phone beeped just again.
I don't know yet. Bit I love you and I want it to be soon. But I like it being a secret I feel kind of naughty.. X
I smiled and damn there goes that boner..
Oh really? How about after work you and me can go out? X
Oh god. Stay down boy! (If yall know what I mean yall have to sort your minds out! Damn 😂)
Sounds great. Meet me at mine tomorrow? 😉 X
Sure will! X
And the chat ended there and so did this chapter..
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