Complicated

Rock bottom

"Simon?! What are we gonna do? This is why we should of ended it!"
"I can't help it Harley! I'm in love with you."
"Simon. You know I can't love you back. Now are we gonna find who it is or we just gonna stand around here and probably end up kissing?"
"Well.. I kinda like the sound of number 2.."
"Simon!?" I punched his arm. And as I turned away I smiled. Not letting him know I still was crushing on him. Hard. I opened the door to see if anyone was near us.
"Simon. What if it was Josh?"
"It won't be. I mean it could of been anyone."
"How can you be so sure. This is your fault. You shouldn't of kissed me. You should be trying to get Jess back or something."
I turned around the corner and Lia and Tobi stood with their arms crossed. They looked angry. Really angry.
"Looking for us?" Lia said.
"Was it you? I swear nothing's going on. Not anymore. We ended it!" I said pleading for forgiveness.
"Wait so you and Simon have done this before? Man I thought you were a good guy. How can you do that to Josh. He's my best friend he deserves to know."
"Wait. Tobi. It wasn't Harley's fault. It was mine. I kissed her. She backed away. She said she didn't want to hurt Josh. It was just because I didn't know what I was thinking I was just so upset about Jess leaving me."
"Fine. But the next time it happens. I'm telling Josh."
Tobi licked up Lia and put her over his shoulders and walked upstairs.
"Simon. I'm being serious this has to stop. You and I aren't a thing. I care about Josh."
"And you don't care about me?"
"Of course I do. Josh is a good man. He doesn't deserve this. No one does. Even Jess." I walked upstairs and layed in bed next to Josh. I snuggled into him.
The next day:
Everyone was awake but me. It was 11 and I had slept in. It was the weekend and I finally had 2 days off. I jumped out of the bed and made it neat for Josh. I went downstairs and sat at the table. As soon as I sat down Simon gave me a dirty look and walked away. He hadn't even finished his breakfast.
"What's his problem?"
"He's probably just upset about Jess."
"Any ways. Did you have a nice sleep?"
"Of course I did. You?"
"Yeah it was fine." That was a complete lie. I didn't have a good sleep at all. In fact I had no sleep because I layed awake all night thinking about who I loved more and who I saw my life with. Unfortunately I didn't come to a conclusion so I'm still completely clueless about the whole situation. After I finished breakfast I went back upstairs to get dressed and stuff. I picked up my hair brush as always and blasted out the music off my phone. I literally stripped while singing Potential Break Up Song. I know great song for the time right?
🎶Your not living till your living. Living with meee-eee your not winning till your winning. Winning meeeee. Your not getting till your getting. Getting meeeyy. This is the potential break up song-🎶
"Your a great singer babe.." Josh giggled as he pulled me in for a cuddle.
"Oh I know.." I joked back.
He kissed me. But I know this sounds bad but it was like nothing was there any more. Like all feelings for Josh had gone. Yes of course I still cared for him. But not in the way I felt for Simon. Not anymore.
A couple of days later:
Simon hadn't came downstairs in days. Which also meant he didn't eat and move for a long time too. When everyone was out of the house I decided it was the time to see what was wrong with Simon. I knocked on the door hoping for an answer.
"Simon? It's Harley let me in."
"Why? Shouldn't you be with Josh right now?"
"Is this what it's about?"
"What do you think?" I hear him cry from the other side of the door. And tears come streaming down my face too.
"Simon. I hate to see you like this..."
He continues to cry for another 10 minutes or so. I felt completely helpless. I'm normally great at fixing people but it was like I had broke Simon forever.
"Simon please. I just want to talk to you. While no one's here."
He finally opens the door and locks it as soon as I walk in. We sit on the bed together and he hugs me tight. His tears are still making there way down his face. I look around the room. He's been drinking a lot of alcohol. The room just stinks of it. Vodka and beer bottles everywhere. I look behind me. There was blood stains on his white bed sheets. And a razor blade sitting next to it.
"Simon why are you doing this to yourself?"
"Because. The woman I love most is in love with my best friend."
"But Simon. I do love you.."
"You don't! If you loved me you wouldn't of ended it with me."
"I ended it because I saw Jess get hurt. I didn't want that to be Josh too."
"Then why choose me to break my heart?"
"I didn't mean for any of this"
"Any of what?"
"I didn't mean to fall on love with you." He grabs my face and strokes my cheek.
"I love you.."
"I love you too." He kisses me.
"When will this stop? When will you end it with Josh?"
"I don't know. I just want to be with you.."
I grab his hand and take him to mine and Josh's bed. We start to make out and then we fall onto the bed. We slowly pull off each other's clothes. And touch each other. I don't want this to end. I run my fingers through his hair. As he opens my legs. We start slowly and gradually get more rough.
"Ohh Simon.." I smile at him as he penetrates me. He grabs my head and makes out with me once again. We carry on for half an hour more. That's until there was a knock at the door mid-sex.
"Harley?" It was Josh. And he was knocking at the door right now. Simon quickly hides under the bed and I freshen myself up. I couldn't change. Not now. So I had to have sex with him. With my true love present. What was I gonna do?