Different But Loved

Chapter 22.

I look around the room as we wait for my urine and blood work but my mind was somewhere else.

I knew my mom was talking about me when she said 'she's to young to have a baby.'

That's why I hate myself I can't even take care of myself. My mom and Jason would do that. My mom thinks I can't take care of a baby because of how I am and I think she is right. Why didn't think about it when I had sex with him. Why didn't it ever accord to me that I could of been pregnant-

There was a knock on the door before the doctor came inside. I looked up at him and he seem to be mad. "The test came out positive." He looks down at his papers. "Both of them did sir." He handed the papers to Iwan as he scan through them.

I turn to him and saw his features blank. I felt a pain in my heart as he looks at me but doesn't smile when I do. 'I'm sorry if you're mad.' I mouth as I look down at my hands.

"Give us a minute." Iwan places the papers on the table next to him.

He take a hold of my hands and telling on the way how strong his grip was I knew he was mad. We heard the door close and my legs began to tremble.

'I'm sorry Iwan. It's my fault.' I whimper as I look into his eyes I felt like crying. It was my fault for not being safe. Before I could do anything else Iwan chest comes in contact with my face and I wrap my arms around his waist.

I was trembling. Yes I was scared. I don't like it when people are angry. Especially with me.

"Don't ever blame yourself." His voice is soft. "And I'm not mad. I'm f*cking happy baby!" He sits me know as he gets on one knee his hand rest on my side so he can be at my level.

He shouldn't be.

The voice in my head say.

I look back up at him letting him know the truth. 'I'm scared. I'm not ready.' I try to get up but I'm pulled back. I felt tears.

I.. I don't want a baby. I dream of having a baby but now. Now I don't want one. What if it becomes slow like me? What if it  can't take care of itself? What if it is mute? I shake my head 'no'.

'I dont. I can't.' I mouth to Iwan.

"Don't you dare say that Maya. You will have our baby! You will be a good mother." He says a bit harsh. He looks at me and I could see the hurt in his eyes. I ruin everything.

I hold Iwan as he sit me on his lap. I hug him as I feel bad for saying that. I should never expect the worse it only makes things worse with me.

I don't know for how long it was but before I knew it I was falling a sleep.

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Iwan's POV.

"Yes. She positive." I tell Maya's mother. "I'm happy." I tell the truth.

"I don't know if I should be happy or mad. One, is she is way to young and two, she will be the first to bring a baby in our family." Maya's mother says cheerfully.

"Be happy." I tell her. "Oh and Maya.... Seem panicked about the news. Like.. she wasn't happy." My hearts break as I say this. When she said to me that she didn't, the first thing that popped on my head was abortion. I will never let her do that. Maya will have a health baby.

"I wish I was there." She says. Maya family had to go back to Arkansas for an emergency. I think Jason got into an accident. I was just told not to tell Maya.

I watch as my dad makes his way into my office taking a seat in one of the chairs. In every home I or he owned we had our own offices just to have time away from ourselves or each other.