Darcy's diary [ h.s. updating ]

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Dear Mommy,

Daddy went home very late last night. At least that's what Auntie Eleanor told me. She came over right after Uncle Ni, Uncle Lou, and Uncle Li arrived here. They said that I should just write to you since you won't be coming home for a while. Remember when you told me that you used to write letters and give them to daddy? I'm seven now and I want to write letters to you. I hope you love them Mommy.

Why was Daddy crying on the floor? And where are you?

Love,

Darcy ♡

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harry

"Mr. Styles?" The nurse from earlier knocks as I sob into Melody's shoulder.

I take a deep breath. 

"Please, call me Harry..."

"And call me Emily. I'm sorry but they need to take her to the morgue now to get her prepared for burial" she says sadly.

"Oh, right" I clear my throat.

"The death certificate will be released soon but for now you can see your son down at the nursery" she adds.

"Give me a minute" I tell her and she nods.

"I love you, okay? So much. See you soon" I croak and kiss Melody's forehead, still taking in every moment.

I follow Emily out as two men enter the room and prepare to wheel my wife's body out of the room.

"I'm sorry, Harry. You didn't deserve to lose her. I'm sure she was an amazing wife" she says.

You have no idea how amazing she was. She put up with me through all the crap. Even after I left her for somebody else to protect her and my daughter, she never loved anyone but me.

"This is the nursery" she says as we walk down two halls.

The room is well lit and whimpers or cries of new born babies can be heard all throughout. Nurses move from one row to another, either changing diapers, checking name tags, or feeding them.

Emily leads me to the farthest row and we stop at a little baby boy in an incubator.

His eyes are closed, making it difficult to know if he got mine or Melody's eyes. His hair is black and straight which he definitely got from my wife.

"He got stressed from the accident but it's a miracle he survived" Emily sighs, looking at my newborn son.

I take a deep breathe. "Is-is he okay?"

"Of course. But he was born premature. He's only seven months old. Hopefully the incubator helps his condition" she explains.

I lay my eyes on my son. He is so small compared to the other babies here. Different tubes are connected to his body but thankfully he's still alive.

"He still doesn't have a name, Harry" Emily says, snapping me out of my thoughts.

Without hesitation I choose the name Melody always wanted.

"His name is Ivan William..."

~ ♡ ~ ♡ ~

darcy

"Come on baby girl, Spongebob is on!" Uncle Niall and Uncle Liam try their best to cheer with red and swollen eyes. They have been crying for the past hour and I have no idea why.

I'm seven years old and I'm not stupid to know that something is definitely wrong.

"I don't wanna watch. Where's Mommy and Daddy?" I ask, pouting. I grab daddy's teddy bear and hug it tight.

Uncle Li and Ni just look at each other as Spongebob ends and 'breaking' news appears. Auntie Eleanor immediately walks in and takes my hand.

"Hey baby, let's go to your room okay? You need a bath" she tells me.

"Okay..."

Aunt Eleanor has a big tummy just like what Mommy has. Only hers is much bigger. When I asked them why they were so big before both of them laughed and said there were babies inside.

"Hey, so what do you want to wear today, bug?" Auntie El asks as she pulls out a pink and a yellow shirt. I choose the pink one and she smiles sadly, a tear flowing down her cheek.

"Don't cry Auntie El" I command and wipe the tears away.

"Thanks baby girl" she says and kisses my nose.

"Ready for your bath?"

"Yes please"

I finish taking a bath and I wear the pink shirt I chose, brown shorts, and white converse. I run down the stairs and jump onto Uncle Ni's lap.

"Hey bug. You smell nice" he tells me, quickly wiping his tears away. I tilt my head and look at him.

What's going on?

The day passed by slowly and I ended up drawing in my room, playing with my dolls, or taking naps. I was getting bored and Auntie El, Uncle Ni, and Uncle Li didn't want to talk to me that much.

Mommy and Daddy should have come back by now.

I lie down on my bed and face the wall. I hear a familiar voice beside me.

"Hey, baby girl..."

I look up and see Uncle Ni standing beside my bed.

"Hello, Nini" I tease.

I move a bit and pat the spot next to me. He takes his shoes off and lies down next to me. I place my head on his chest. He gives me a quick kiss on the forehead.

"Where's Mom?" I ask, sadly. 

"I miss Daddy too" I begin cry.

"Shhh, baby don't cry. You'll see them soon" he tells me.

"Do you want to take a nap?" Uncle Ni asks, rubbing my cheek.

"Yeah.."

"Okay" he says and sits up. He leaves my bed.

"Uncle Ni!" I cry. He turns around. 

"Yes, bug?"

"Can you stay here and sing for me?" I ask him.

"Of course baby girl. Anything for you" he smiles.