Darcy's diary [ h.s. updating ]

6.

Dear Mommy,

Today I found out you weren't going to wake up anymore. Daddy yelled at me for the first time ever since you told me he was my father. I'm having a hard time controlling my emotions right now. I wish you would wake up but I know that's not going to happen. But what if you did? We could all be a happy family again. You and Daddy could take me to the park and then for ice cream like we used to.

I love you Mommy. Wherever you are right now.

I saw a shooting star pass by my window just now. Remember when we'd lie down on the grass, look up into the sky, and make wishes? What were you wishing for then, anyway? You never told me.

Love, Darce ♡

I close my diary and leave it under my pillow. I grab my blanket and decide to sit up. I open my window that leads out to the balcony even though Daddy and Mommy always told me not to. I have a new room now, by the way. They said they were preparing my old room for someone else. So Daddy and Mommy moved me to Uncle Niall's bedroom since he went to look for a new place. I like to call it the 'big girl' room.

The cold wind hits my cheeks and makes me shiver. I embrace the blanket tightly and look up into the night sky.

I see another shooting star pass by. I close my eyes and make another wish. Yes, Mom taught me how to pray a lot but I read a lot of fairytales too. It couldn't hurt to try and make a wish, right?

"Star light, star bright, shooting star I see tonight. I wish I may, I wish I might, have the wish I make tonight" I mumble, deciding on my wish.

I look down and see Daddy on the swing in the garden. He has Mom's favorite Mickey Mouse sweatshirt in his lap. A tear falls down from my left eye and I look up into the sky again.

"I wish Daddy wouldn't be so lonely anymore..."

* - * - *

Three days have passed since I made that wish on a star and found out mom wasn't ever waking up. My aunties and uncles have been staying here with me or either taking me to see dad and mom. Dad looked like a zombie, honestly. I was scared that he could also 'die' any moment now. And mom? She was still lifeless.

I lift the blanket off of me and hear voices coming near my room. The door opens and I pretend to be asleep. I cover my face quickly with a pillow.

"The funeral service is today..." That's Uncle Liam's voice. "We're picking up Ivan today, too" Uncle Zayn explains. Ivan? Who's Ivan?

I feel the side of my bed sink as a warm hand rubs my back. I look up from my pillow and see Auntie El seated beside me and Auntie Dani standing behind her.

"Hi baby girl! Good morning!" Auntie Eleanor smiles. Her tummy is huge and I place my hand on top of it.

"Good morning!" I yawn and sit up straight.

"We need to get you dressed up, bug" Uncle Z says. For what? I cock my head to the side and look at him.

"We'll explain later, okay?" Aunt Dani tells me. I nod and put on my hello kitty fluffy slippers.

Uncle Lili and Uncle Z leave the room while I sit on the bed, swinging my legs - a habit that I need to stop doing. Aunt Dani and El go outside for a bit and come back in holding a white dress. It doesn't have any sleeves on it and is made of satin and has a lot of glitters covering it.

"This is what I'm wearing today?" I ask. Both of them nod. "Harry wants it to be special.." Eleanor sighs sadly.

I finish taking a bath with Auntie Danielle helping me. She dries me up and I walk into my bedroom with a towel wrapped around me.

They dress me up in the beautiful dress which made me look like a princess. They curl my hair more than it already is and they place a crown of white flowers on the top of my head. Just like what I saw Mommy wearing in my dream. Auntie El grabs my white sandals from the closet and twirls me around slowly to take a better look.

Auntie Perrie soon comes barging in the room wearing a black puffy dress, a black lace hat and some high black shoes. I think they call it 'pumps'.

"Oh my gosh!" She squeals as she kneels in front of me. Auntie El and Dani laugh a little bit.

"You're gorgeous!" She smiles. There are black marks around the bottom of her eyes making her look older.

"Just like her Mom" Auntie El begins to sob. The three of them embrace each other.

"It's gonna be a long long day for us..." Auntie Dani sighs.

* ~ * ~ *

I walk down the steps and go into the living room. I see Daddy and Uncle Louis seated on the couch. Uncle Lou has his hand on Daddy's shoulder and he's crying, again.

I guess my wish didn't work.

"Hi Daddy" I stand beside the couch awkwardly. He lifts his head and Uncle Louis does too.

"Hi princess" He smiles, his voice cracking. I sit on Daddy's lap and kiss his cheek. He's wearing a white tux with a pink shirt inside and white shoes. His hair is curly like mine.

"You look beautiful, baby girl" he smiles and hugs me close. "Just like Mommy?" I smile sadly.

"Yes" he says, tears beginning to fall again.

"Daddy, I'm sorry for making you cry" I begin to gulp. I hug him close and he does the same.

"It's okay, baby girl" he laughs quietly. "I love you" he whispers.

"I love you more, daddy" I reply. Tears are still flowing down daddy's cheeks. I let go of the hug.

"Hey, Haz we need to get going if you want Iv-" Uncle Niall comes in thru the front door.

Daddy buries his face in his hands.

"Ni, take Soph out for a bit" Uncle Lou says and Nini picks me up.