Alone....Till he came

Chapter 4

Dream  

I was walking down the alley behind my school when I heard someone calling my name. "Alex! Hey fat ass!" Stacey yelled. I stopped walking and turned around to see Stacey, her crew, and three boys standing there. "What do you want?" I asked in a tiny voice. Stacey smirked and whispered something in the boy's ears. Then they started to smile evilly.  

They started to stalk toward me like I was their prey and with every step they took foward I took one back. Then I started running, but I forgot that it was a dead end and they soon caught up with me. I pushed my back into the wall as far as I can, and my breathing got rapid.  

They started to touch me everywhere and then they roughly pulled down my pants and underwear. I tried to push them off but it was no use. They were stronger than me. They started to rape me and I screamed in pure agony-  

I was woken up by a worried kyle. I was confused at first, but then I remebered my dream and I started to sob. He pulled me into a hug and whispered soothing things into my ear. I sobbed unto I couldn't cry anymore. I dint know how long we sat in each others arms, but it was the afternoon when we finally let go.  

"Let's go the movies?" kyle asked pulling out cloths from his overnight bag. I nodded and got up to take a shower. I walked out the bathroom in my robe and walked to my closet. I looked through it for about 15 minutes before I decided to wear a long sleeve black shirt, red skinny jeans, and my black converse. 

I pulled my hair into a messy bun and walked down stairs to the living room where Kyle was playing in his phone. When he heard my foot steps he looked up from his phone. I smiled and grabbed the keys from the table by the door and and motioned for us to leave. "If we're going then I'm driving" he demanded.  

I didn't try to fight it cause I knew I wouldn't win so I just threw him the keys and jumped into the passengers seat.  

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We arrived at the theater around 3. in the ride here we looked up the times of shows and decided on watching Mortal Intsruments. We bought the tickets and Kyle said he had to go the bathroom so I went to buy the food. "A large popcorn, with two slushes please" I told the casher It took them about 5 mintues cause they were busy. Kyle still isn't back yet?? I walked toward the boys bathroom, but stopped when I geard kyles voice. "Hey man, what are you doing here?" he asked the person. " The question is what are u doing here with her? Man she's fat and ugly" they said. I recognized the voice as Jason. He's probably here with Stacey. I heard Kyle tell him something and it shocked me. " Naw man its not like that, I'm only trying to get in her pants"- I didn't want to hear anymore so I ran. I dropped what I was holding and I ran.When i got outside i started to run back to my house. I was halfway home when i heard a car honk. It was probably Kyle. I started to walk faster, and then went into a run. I was coming closer to the curb at the end of the sidewalk when a car speed infront of me. A confused and mad kyle walked over to me. "What the hell?!!?" he screamed. i flinched back from his tone, but soon recovered and started to walk across the street. "Alex! Alex! What the hell! Why did you ditch me?!? I came back from the bathroom, and you were gone!" he said angry. I should be the one getting angry. I thought he was actually my friend, i thought he actually liked me, but i guess i was wrong. When i thought about what he said it got me angrier, angrier. and I'm about to explode. I walked up to him practically fuming. "REALLY!!??!! YOU'RE THE ONE WHO ONLY WANTED TO GET IN MY PANTS! I THOUGHT YOU ACTUALLY LIKED ME! I THOUGHT YOU ACTUALLY WANTED TO BE MY FRIEND! But i guess i was wrong. So yah your job here is done. Now i know not to trust anyone ever again. You just made my walls stronger. Don't talk to me ever again. And please just leave me alone." and with that i walked away. Looks like another person i cared about turnedon me. I can't believe he only wanted to get in my pants. He's such a doche.

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When i got home, i went straight to my bedroom and crawled under the covers. At this point i was bawling my eyes out and had my lucky knife with me. i made long deep cuts on my stomach and cherished the feel of the cool blade on my skin. When i was finished i cleaned everything up and cried myself to sleep. I woke up the next morning with dried tears on my pillow, and my mom yelling at me to get up or i will be late to school. I trudged to my closet and decided to wear a long sleeve blue shirt, black skinney jeans, and my blue converse that had writting all over them, with my black beanie. I walked to my bathroom and hopped into the shower. I let the warm water relax my muscles and i started to sing demi lavato 'skyscraper'. When i got out i blow dried my hair, curled it to perfection, and put my beanie on over my curls. When i was done i walked down stairs and grabbed my bag and a piece of toast. It was cold outside, but i still have to walk to school. Usually Kyle picked me up and took me to school, but i dont think that will be happening anytime soon. I got to school just in time, and guess what? Kyle was talking, laughing, and hanging with the popular kids. Wow that's surpising (note the sarcasm). I walked by them and got a chorus of 'Eww you're so ugly', 'Fat ass', Just go kill yourself already, no body would care'. That one was from Kyle. I stopped walking and turned toward them. "Maybe i will so you dont have to see my ugly face anymore" i said coldly, but showing the all the pain in my eyes. They all just laughed and turned back to each other. Maybe they were right. Maybe i should kill myself, they wouldn't care anyway. A tear fell from my eye and i started to run back to my house. I'm going to kill myself. Finally I'll be happy.

Kyle's POV

What did she mean by that. Is she going to try to kill herself? I didn't mean it. I looked back at her to see a tear fall down her cheek, but then she ran. Oh shit! She's going to try to kill herself. I started to run after her, but i was a bit behind. Damn she's fast! I didn't mean it. God I'm so stupid! i contiued to run after her when i heard Jason calling me. "Kyle, where are you going?" he yelled after me. i didnt have time to turn around and tell him so i yelled over my shoulder. "I'm going to save Alex!" i think he caught on cause he cursed and started to run with me. When we got to her house we saw that the door was open, and her bag thrown to the side. We ran up the stairs and i almost tripped with how fast i was going. I tried to open her bedroom door, but it was locked. There's only one thing to do. I kicked the door as hard as i can, and it flew open. i ran into the room, but didnt see her so i ran into her bathroom and that's where i found her. She had deep cuts on her arms and legs, and there was a bottle of pills on the floor. Sleeping pills. i quickly ran over to her and yelled for Jason to call for an ambulance. i lifted her head up and shoved my fingers down her throat. She started to choke, i took my fingers out and watched as she threw up. teh parametics came in just then and took her away. Yes. I saved her. Jason then walked into the bathroom, and looked like he was about to cry. "She tried to kill herself because of us didnt she? God how could i be so stupid and not realize what was happening to her. I mean look at her. She's so skinny." he said sitting down on her bed and outting his head in his hands. he's right. We're probably the reason why she tried to kill herslef. I should have never let her walk away that day she heard us talking. I didn't mean it though. Jason said that if I didn't say it he would rape my little sister. I can't let him do that. That's my little sister. I had to do it.