Dricki Love & Lust Chronicles

Now or Never

Nicki sat by her window with her phone in hand.

She ignored every text and phone call that came until it all just stopped. Nicki pulled her knees under his sweater and just watched the rain pour outside onto the metropolis like pool below. She tried to keep a clear head but it was hard since she had so much on her mind.

She then felt someone's presence beside her and an arm try to wrap around her.

"Don't," she warned and never took her eyes off the water that was constantly being disturbed by the falling droplets of rain.

"C'mon Nic, cheer up." Safaree said and she had the urge to slap him but she had no energy or will to even move. It was like she was sick, but she wasn't at the same time.

"How the hell can you tell me to cheer up when the man I plan on making my husband won't speak to me?" she said lowly, her voice was hoarse and strained from her crying, her eyes red and puffy, and her body wouldn't stop shaking.

When she said that, it caused a pang in Safaree's chest.

"Well it's his loss, you still got me." He tried to soothe but that helped nothing at all.

"What do you want?" Nicki asked when he didn't move.

"I just want to make you feel better since that bastard is making you feel so bad. I can warm up some leftover pizza, you're favorite." Safaree tried and Nicki did appreciate it but right now she just wanted to be alone.

"No I'm not hungry," she said and Safaree furrowed his brow.

"Are you sick cause I don't think I've ever heard you say that you're not hungry," he said feeling her forehead but she pushed his hand away before standing.

"I'm going to bed," she said and Safaree looked at his watch. It was only one o'clock in the afternoon.

As Nicki walked through the halls her mind was stuck on the man she loved. She didn't even realize that she'd made it to their bedroom door until she blinked a couple times. Nicki pushed the door open and walked across the room. She pushed his sweater off and got into bed closing her eyes.

She was almost read to drift off to a unsteady slumber when felt the bed shift and arms wrap around her.

"Aubrey?" she called with hope and felt lips kiss the nape of her neck but the scent was wrong, the way this person held her was wrong, the feeling from the kiss was wrong. Nicki just sank into the pillow. "Safaree get out," she said and tears rolled down her face.

"No I wanna make you feel better," he said and held her tighter but Nicki felt awkward and deceitful in his hold. Her tears just kept falling and she tried to move away but SB's hold was too tight.

She was done fighting, she was was ready to give up.

"Fine do what you want, I don't care anymore. Drake probably got Nebby to console him so why the hell not," she said and barely moved. SB could hear the hurt in her voice and his hands ran over her body.

Nicki shuttered at his touch and shut her eyes tight trying to pretend it was Drake but she couldn't. Eventually she used all the strength she had left and pushed SB out of the bed.

"Go away," she said and her voice was muffled by the pillow.

"So you really hung up on that nigga, he don't even love you, I love you." SB tried to convince but it only made Nicki even more upset.

He stepped back and watched her as she tiredly changed the sheets of the bed and went into the bathroom. He could hear the shower running and as she showered, Nicki cried but washed her body so it was free of Safaree's touch.