Dricki Love & Lust Chronicles

Furthest Thing

One Year Earlier...

"You promised." She said faintly and tears fell quickly down her face, running over her right cheek and onto the pillow. Her back was too him and her body was morbidlly still. "You of everyone, why would you do this to me?" She asked and couldn't even fix his mouth to answer her. He watched her as just laid there almost lifelessly in her bed, thinking that he should come closer to her but always something holding him back no matter how much he wanted to hold her in his arms. He was convinced that if he touched her in such a fragile state, that he caused, he would shatter her to pieces.

She turned over so she could look at him through her blurred vision, a tall figure on the side of the room. She wiping her eyes so that she could see him clearly. "Why?" She cried out again and he furrowed his brows with a saddened and remorseful frown as he thought of a proper answer. "Answer me, you owe me at least an answer!" She demanded and he jumped at her sudden change in emotion.

"I- I don't know," he mumbled out and she could hear the confusion in his voice. The past three months had proven that they could make things work between the two of them, that just because they both were busy was that they couldn't try but he let his life in his profession become more important than the very person he lived for.

He always made sure to put music after her and knew that she needed him do that for her but he allowed a couple parties take him away from the person that needed him most.

"What do you mean you don't know!" She almost yelled. "You put me through all of this, I trusted you to always be here when I need you, you promised that you always would! Now you can just stand there and say 'i don't know'!" She spat and her words felt like venom in his veins as they passed through his ears. He hung his head and rubbed his face with his hands.

He thought about all they had done, all that he'd promised and he mean every promise he made to her.

He'd promised that she would his one, his only, and his last for the rest of their existance. But the temptation loomed all around him and he let the fact that they weren't public be the thing that rashonalized his behavior. He threw it in her face that they weren't public, he let it lead to argument after argument that put a strain on them cause a wedge to form between them and push them apart.

He'd promised that he would never hurt her, that she could trust him, never feel regret for anything they did together including breaking her celibacy for him. She'd given him something that she promised she'd never give another man with out defnite committment but he promised that when the time was right he could legally call her his wife, even though to him, she alrady was.

He would remind her every day how beautiful she is and how much he loves her, ever unchanging only growing with the pain and sorrow that followed them day by day while apart. Pride standing between them.

He promised that he loved her more than anything and anyone, and no matter who or what came along or came back into his life that his love for her wouldn't change. She would always be his only one.

"Baby please, just listen to me." He pleaded trying to get her to understand, in his defense he knew little of what was actually happening let along the circumstanstances of the whole situation but what he did know what that she needed him but thought that since it didn't seem urgent he could just see her later. She listened to his plea but she wouldn't allow for him to convince her that allow though he recognizes that he was in the wrong, she knew that just by him saying the right things she would forgive him, he would get in the bed, they would make love and he would be gone before she woke up.

"No, I'm tired of excuses, get out." She said and hid under her covers. She wasn't screaming, she wasn't in his face, she wasn't telling him off. She was begging to be left alone and it terrified him since it meant that this wouldn't just fix itself. "Please Aubrey, just go." She pleaded again and her voice sounded broken and as she spoke he could feel a heavy weight on his chest but would comply with her wishes in the moment.