Dricki Love & Lust Chronicles

So Cold

She always loved Toronto in the dead of winter. Some would complain about the cold, and all the snow and ice that would constantly become an inconvenience and an annoyance to others but she loved all of it. Maybe because it was always an excuse for him to be there to hold her and keep her warm at night when they both knew that all she really wanted was to be held.

The air outside was a brisk negative two degrees and she sat at her window, watching the children play in the snow in the little park across the road from her building. Her tiny body wrapped up in a blanket and a cup of her favorite tea in hand. The blanket was coated in his scent from the last time he was in her bed, the last time they made love to one another.

She remembered that night perfectly, the way he held her, the intensity of their lust for one another in that very moment. The way he brought her body to such a height that it seemed unreal, the way he tended to her every want and need. He could read her body and knew what she wanted and needed at every instance. The way he held her so close when they tired and spoke sweetly into her ear making her calm and giggle as he wrapped the blanket around their bodies.

What Nicki wished that she could forget was what transpired that very morning. Fear had overtaken her and the reality of what they had done the night before settled into her. She had just made love with her best friend, and now here she laid in his arms waiting for him wake up and leave her. She knew deep down that he didn't mean to hurt her by leaving but she knew how busy he was and this was something she thought that neither of them were ready for.

Once he had awoken, Nicki felt him kiss her cheek and just as expected he raised from the bed and pulled on his boxers. She couldn't even remember most of their argument because she was so angered and upset but from what she could remember, she said something along the lines of I hate you, never come back.

The second those words left her mouth she wished she could take them back but instead she marched herself into her bathroom and slammed the door shut before starting her shower. Half of her wanted for him be there waiting for her when she opened the door but the other half was hoping that she wouldn't see him anywhere in the apartment.

Just as she hoped, he was gone. But that was over two months ago, and now here she sat alone, waiting to see one of his cars pull up, or to hear his knock at her door everyday.

As the days grew longer and colder, Nicki regretted her mistake more and more. The bed was so cold without him there to keep her warm, and this made her realize how much she needed him in her life. Everything seemed to be right but it all was just empty.

Nicki jumped at someone knocking at the door and she walked over to answer hoping that it was who she was longing to see but instead it was his friend. She pulled the door open and greeted him with a weak smile.

"Hi Noah," she greeted and he smiled at her.

"Hi Nicki, may I come in?" He asked and she nodded before stepping aside. A midst all the commotion of the situation, 40 felt as though he was torn on both sides of the argument.

On one hand it would be easy to side with a man who had been like his brother since they were kids and on the other hand he still sympathized with Nicki because everyone knew how she was about things like this and she was like a sister to him. He felt like a kid stuck in the middle of a parents argument, but chose to just be neutral in the whole situation.

"What brings you here?" she asked and he looked down at her.

"I came to check up on you, y'know see how you were doing since we haven't really spoken in awhile." 40 explained.

"I'm fine I guess, what about yourself, I remember Courtne telling me you had fallen again?" She asked politely and he shrugged.

"I'm good, feel alot better but she totally over reacted." 40 said and Nicki tilted her head to the side and thought of Courtne. Nicki knew that Courtne loved 40 more than anyone and her worrying was just her way of showing that love.