I wanna be yours >> C.H

Chapter 15.

I wake up and get ready for a jog. I get in some tights and my chucks. I put on a sweater and put my hair into the double Dutch braids. I write a note on the fridge for George just incase he wonders.

Went for a jog be back in twenty.

I grab my water bottle my headset and in out the door. I head up a trail that leads to the city. About ten minutes I get there. Man I wish I had my camera. It's okay I'll be back here soon enough, I run back down and see George awake drinking coffee and reading the newspaper. He has the radio on to some crybaby station. I think it's the college alternative. Wah wah wah.
"Morning tío."
I head upstairs
"Morning chunky monkey."
I take a shower and get into some lazy clothes I don't plan on going anywhere so I think I'll stay here and watch some more movies. Maybe have Nat come over.
" okay I'm meeting camera guy at the beach want to come?"
"No I'm okay thanks I'll just stay here maybe call Nat to see if she wants to come over and watch some videos."
"Alright kiddo I'm off."
"Have fun and tell him I say hello."
"will do."
I get on the phone and call Nat, who says she's busy so I call Corey. Feldman picks up.
"Yello?"
"Hey it's Harper I was wondering if haim is there."
" yeah what's up?"
" oh I was wondering if you guys wanted to come over watch some videos order a bunch of takeout maybe go swimming? It's cool if you don't."
"Yeah we'll be over In fifteen."
"Okay cool. "
I wait for them to get here. They do in less then ten minutes. They come in. Jamison's here too.  I give them all hugs. Haim kissed my cheek as he entered. The Coreys run to the pool. And Jamison grabs the phone and orders a bunch of shit. "Hey get some stuff without meat please."
"Will do pretty lady." We jokingly winks. "I'll wait here for the food so you can go swim." I tell Jamison. "Alright but call us in right after it arrives okay?"
"Mkay."
It takes half an hour to get here. I do as requested and call the guys in. They run in all managing o slip on the wooden floors with their wet selves. I grab my carton and some chopsticks and a Sprite from the fridge. I pull out a bunch of drunks like punch, juice, soda, and water. We all grab what we wanted and headed out to the table that's by the pool.
"So how's life?" I ask
"Good I guess I mean I can't wait for the premiere that's in a few days?" Jamison replies.
"Yeah I already bought my outfit."
"Ooh I want to see." Feldman raised an eyebrow.
"You will can it." Haim hits him.
"I'm going to wait for the food to go down."
"Oh cmon it won't the that bad." Feldman jumps in
"CRAMP CRAMP CRAMP." He yells
"How about now Feldman?"  Haim laughs
"Oh screw." Feldman flips Haim off.
We stay out here like all day. Flipping off each other and the diving board. I play music on the outside stereo system. We started watching the Exorcist and eat some more. Feldman and Jamison left early leaving Corey and I alone. My feet are up on the couch and I'm leaning against Corey. Every time I get scared I tuck my face into Corey's shoulder. The movie finally ends and we're both spooked. So we watch Stand By Me. I go on and on how cute Feldman, River, Wil, and Jerry all look in this movie. He turns the screen off and lightly twists my head toward him kissing me right on the lips. I kiss back. He begs for entrance but I don't let him. He gets frustrated and grabs my waist just to prove it. We get up and clean the mess. Then we head up to my room. He continues to do the same and we both lay down on the bed. Corey looks at me with deep concern that's visible in his very oceanic blue eyes. Though there's not much light to prove that they're blue, I know there there looking at me with a gloss that I've never seen before in him. Like a sympathetic look for me. I wonder why though? " are you re-ready?" He looks at me almost ashamed of what he had asked. I simply nod and we continue the rest....

> the next morning >
I wake up and immediately start writing in my journal.

I had sex last night. With Corey. Dint worry we used a condom. I mean it hurt of course but it was nice. I was kind of scared at first. It's not like what people in high school  describe it to be. They make it sound like it was nothing special. Maybe it isn't special  to them. But my night was special. It may have been out of the blue. But it was magical.  I just can't believe it. I was on the verge of tears when Corey stopped and asks me if I didn't want to do it anymore. Damn he seemed like an expert. Maybe he wasn't a virgin? I don't know.  I'm scared to ask, though we've been dating for a while but we still haven't really sat down and talked about each other. I know it's none of my business but I'm just a tad bit curious. I mean I'll tell him everything about me. Even though that may be a little hard I'll do it. I don't expect Corey to. I just remember hearing him tell Feldman something about "the other side of me."  Should I be worried? It's probably not that big of a deal 

Corey wakes up as soon as I put my journal back in the drawer.
"Good morning darling."
"Morning Corey."
"What wrong?"
"Nothing it's just I have a slight headache thats all I'll just  get some aspirin."
"Oh okay then." He gets up and heads to the bathroom. I go downstairs to George's medicine cabinet for some aspirin. I get one and head to the kitchen for a glass of water. I take a huge gulp of water and head back upstairs. I get ready and I drop Corey off at his because he came with Feldman and Jamison.  He gives me w quick kiss before he jumps out. I start driving around town just looking for a photography shop. So I can buy more film for my camera. I eventually find one.  I buy the film and head back home. I get in my walking clothes. I take my camera and go where I went yesterday. I get there in twenty minutes due to the fact that I'm walking this time. I look for a good spot of the place and snap a photo. I walk back home and head up to my room. I look around for all of the pictures I too and gather them all together. I run to the miscellaneous drawer for some scotch tape. I find one and I put my sheets in the wash. I replace the bed set and start taping up the pictures I have. After a while I finally reach the one I took today. I write. My safe haven. It's all I have for now but my goal is to fill up this wall by the end of the summer. After summer is over I'll take these off and put them in an album. Then fall and winter and spring. I get in the chair and adjust the typewriter on the desk so it's easier for my arms to reach. And I start to write:

I wish that this summer will never end.
A whole new life with brand new friends.  Pretty pink skies as the sun starts to set. So many things I haven't seen yet. The way dolphins jump in the  morning coast. Out of So many things I love one the most. My broken heart is all stitched up because of him. He fixed me up. I'm so grateful. The experiences I'm experiencing. All I need is one thing. You see I miss my parents so.
It was quite silly of them to go. Though I spent my time weeping in pain. So much was lost. There is still a lot to gain. If they didn't do what they did. I wouldn't be here. Hear the music  every which way you go. See the art every way you look. This summer is almost up. But for damn sure. It's one for the books.