Unpredictable ▷ Jerrie

Just Hold Me And Never Let Go

Jade

I tuck a strand of Perrie's blonde hair behind her ear, as I looked into her blue eyes, and rested on my side.

I took her hand, and put it into mine as I gave it a soft kiss. My arm lowered and landed on the mattress.

"Perrie," I coo. "I have this problem that I've been dodging past you lately. I just never knew when the right time would come." I sigh.

"It's ok. You can tell me. Is it Harry?"

My eyes widened, my heart rate fastening. "Sorry." I say.

Perrie took a deep breath and sighed. "It's ok. I understand. You two are on a very rocky road right now," she explained. "He  likes you a lot and I understand what he's going through. It's not hard to fall for you," she smirked. "Too bad you're taken."

I laugh as I rubbed my nose against hers, and felt the heat lift off of our bodies.

"It's getting hot in here." she laughed.

I smiled. "I know. Want be to turn on the fan?"

She nodded. "Please do."

I got off the bed and turned on the fan.
The air in the room cooled slowly as I laid back beside her.

"I don't think it's high enough. Hold on." I say. I sat back and was ready to leave the bed until she wrapped her hand around my wrist.

"Just leave it. It's fine,"she answered as she pulled me in and ran her hand through my wavy brown hair. "I love you ok. I don't care how many boys or girls hit on you but I care if you feel confused. I understand your situation. Being bi isn't easy. It's harder than being a normal gay. So don't keep pressuring yourself. I'll help you find who you really are. Even if it means losing you. If you love someone you gotta let em go right baby?"

I felt a tear roll down and fall onto the bed. "Perrie, I love you so fucking much. So much it hurts to know that you have an uncurable condition. Fuck it. I promise you right now that I'm going to change. I won't be bi. I'll be gay. So I don't have to be confused. So we can be normal." I say.

She shook her head as a river of tears streamed down her blue eyes.

"Baby it doesn't work that way. You can't force yourself to change just like that. I get you just as much as I need you. Don't change for me. Be who you are. And even if one day you lose me.. promise me you'll move on with a beautiful girl or a handsome young lad," she chuckled. "You can be nornal Jade. But I can't. You just need to face the facts. You have another 70 years or so. I have limited years baby. I don't even know if I'll be here with you in two weeks time. It's as scary for me as it is for you. This may not be my end just yet but it was good to let it out. Because I don't wanna leave you like this. I want you to be happy, healthy and the Jade I knew for all these years. You're the only girl my heart belongs to. As cheesy as it sounds I live and long for you Jade Amelia Thirlwall or Badwi or Poopey," she laughed. " But I want to end this emo conversation her because I cannot stop crying," she explained. "So for the next 15 minutes all I want you to do is hold me and never let go. Can you do that for me?

I nodded and wiped her wet cheeks. "I could hold you forever honestly." I smile.

"I know," she smiled. "But before that I want to give you something." She brang her hand to her back pocket and took out two bracelets. It had Jade and Perrie written on them. She took the bracelet engraved with her name and held it in front of me. "This is for you to hold onto. A reminder of how much you mean to me."

I extended my arm and watched her as she brang it around my wrist and clipped it on.

"But that's not all," she smiled. "Turn it over."

I took the bracelet and turned over the plate to see a date.

"The day we first met." I smile.

"The day I will forever thank God for. He led me to you and I couldn't be any happier."

I laughed as I took the bracelet off her and wrapped it around her wrist. "You may have been the one to buy these but always remember that I love you. No matter what happens. And I promise you that I won't change for the sake of our relationship."

"Thank you baby girl." she smiled.

"Your welcome buba." I smile as our lips slowly reconnected.