Clouded (Jc Caylen fanfiction)

Chapter 18

( Fey's P.O.V )

I sat there deep in thought as I stared out the front passenger window of my moms car. I wondered what Jc thought about all of this, does he think about it as much as I do? was it eating him alive as much as it was for me.

I was so confused and hurt about all of this still and it got to the point where I'd cry myself to sleep most nights. Maybe he was better off with that other girl. Maybe it's better off that he doesn't have to be around a disgusting and stupid girl like me. But in the pit of my stomach it still didn't feel right that he was living with a lie created by my doing.

Somehow I just wished he knew how I felt about all of this, I wish Jc the boy with the warm hazel-brown eyes and room stopping smile knew what he was putting me through and knew the pain he was creating.

"Fey" My mom spoke out knocking me out of my thoughts.

"sorry what?" I asked looking at her with a bewildered expression.

"Why don't you tell me about this cottage" she said glancing back at the road ahead of us.

"Well um, Ya Shane invited me and Perris up for three weeks and it's up in Huntsville " I replied.

"how far of a drive?" she asked.

"Shane said about 2 an a half hours" I replied.

She sighed deeply before she said anything more.

"I don't know if you should go, I mean I don't know this Shane boy too well. For all I know he could be a pervert trying to get at my daughter." she said turning down our street.

My mouth opened wide as I let out a gasp before I looked at her with pleads in my tone.

"C'mon mom please I'm going with Perris and Shane's actually a really good guy, not some perv," I begged slightly.

"Oh is he your new interest?" she asked smirking at me a bit.

My eyes widened and my cheeks flushed red.

"Mom!" I shouted embarrassed.

"What it's just a question!?" she shot back.

I sighed deeply trying to clam myself from my outburst earlier. "No, he's not mom" I finished.

Thinking about me actually having a thing for Shane wasn't really ideal to be honest. Don't get me wrong Shane was a good guy and all but I don't really consider him a love interest, I picture him more like a brother that I've never had.

"Oh so I guess your still interested in that boy, Ugh what's his name" she thought for a minute "Cj or something?".

"Jc" I corrected unamused with her old short term memory.

I swear if it weren't for me this woman would be going around calling all of her friends by the wrong names.

"Same thing" she commented pulling into the drive way and twisting the keys in the ignition turning off the car. I got out of the car closing my door and walking around to the back opening the trunk full of groceries.

"So when are you seeing Shane again?" she asked as she picked up two of the four grocery bags in the trunk.

"Well, he was coming by later to drop off something" I said grabbing the remaining bags before closing the trunk and making my way up the porch steps. She stood there in search for the house key for the front of the door.

"Perfect then he can stay for dinner" she stated.

"But mom-" I stated loudly about to argue.

"Do you want to go to the cottage or not?" she interrupted before pushing the key into the lock turning it and opening the door stepping aside so I could go by.