Clouded (Jc Caylen fanfiction)

Chapter 20

( Fey's P.O.V )

I laid in my bed on my side in the fetal position trying to distract myself from the pain running up my spine. The pain was starting to become unbearable and I didn't know how much longer I could take it.

I told my mom I wasn't feeling well today and I guess you could say that was true. I had a small headache and a sore throat to accompany my aching back, she seemed to understand and let me have a sick day. I didn't want to admit the pain in my back was what I thought it was and I sure as hell didn't want to worry everyone around me again.

You probably don't know what I'm talking about so I guess now would be as good as anytime to tell you what's wrong with me.

Ever since I was seven I found out that I have a bad stress problem that caused me to have back problems. This worried my parents due to the fact that if I wasn't careful it could become severe. The stress always makes everything worse and it has always been that way.

Not many people truly understand my condition and to be honest I don't really either.

Once it got so bad I was hospitalized for a couple days and put on bed rest for weeks. The pain was unbearable and I couldn't think of anything worse than it. The doctor told me I had to be careful about what I do and put myself through and I could just remember the stress I put my family through. I didn't want to stress out my mom and dad, not again.

A knock on the door interrupted my thoughts.

"Honey?" My mom creaked open the door and walked over to my bed placing a steaming mug on my bedside table. She sat at the edge of my bed pressing down the mattress making my back stretch a bit, surprisingly I held in the ache my spine gave off and continued to lye still.

"How are you feeling?", she asked running a hand through my hair as I laid faced away from her on my side.

"Sick and sore..." I muffled up to her from my pillow.

She looked at me placing her hand on my forehead and sighed.

"You're warming up..", she pulled her hand away placing it on her knee.

"Maybe you shouldn't go up to Shane's cottage this weekend honey.." she finished.

"Mom you already said I could go, besides you know me I barely get sick and I'll probably be better by tomorrow " I muttered up to her.

I wasn't lying, I rarely got sick and I barely stayed sick.

She sighed deeply as she took in the way I was laying down, "Is your back sore again?".

I didn't want to worry her more than she probably was, but obviously I couldn't hide the pain I was in so I lied for her sake.

"Sorta, but nothing to worry about it's just probably that time of month again.." I smiled up at her staring over me, a false smile.

"well.. I mean if you're not feeling up to anything today maybe it's not such a good idea to go up to the cottage sweetie, if you're on your period up there you won't have any fun if you're feeling all cramped up," she replied.

"Mom I'll be fine, please" I reassured still.

She sighed looking at me, "you're sure? I don't want your back to get bad again..this might not be your period...".

"I won't mom, I'm fine.." I breathed out.

"Positive?" she asked.

I know she was worried about me and who could blame her, but I couldn't put her through all of this again, I just couldn't.