Who We Really are

Chapter 9

"Apologies only account for the evil which they cannot alter." -Benjamin Disraeli

Chapter 9

They kept me locked up in a cage. It has been three days now. Three days since I've seen Kennan or the outdoors.

There is a few upsides to this though, I've been cleaner than I have in five years. I've been full, I haven't gone to bed hungry. And I've also caught up a bit on my sleep.

But I don't have Kennan, my mom or dad. I don't have the old Jessica the one I liked. I don't have my backpack. I don't have any of my relics. I'm lost, Im stressed. I'm scared and most of all I'm lonely.

Just once I wished Jessica would come and say hi. Or beg for my forgiveness, I knew I'd just push her away. But it would still be nice to know she still kind of cared.

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Speak of the devil. Right as I started to reach my breaking point. The devil herself walked in. "Rehyn please listen to me." She said. My bed was on the side of the cell wall so I just sat there and stared at nothing. "Rehyn I want to tell you something.

"Why should I let you tell me something. All you are to me is a dirty, lying, cheating whore and that's all you will ever be." I said with my anger rising. I got up and stormed to the prison bars. The ones that kept me trapped awaiting my death.

"I know." She said quietly.

"Excuse me."

"I know Rehyn! I know all of that. Do you think I'd still be alive if I didn't have those qualities about myself."

"Jessica?"

"Rehyn you don't understand the circumstances I was and still am under."

"Of course I didn't" I said sarcastically. "And I don't think you understand the circumstances I was and still am under."

"Please let me explain myself." I said nothing. I just stared at her. Her eyes were stained with a shade of red and her eyes were very puffy. Even when she'd been crying she still looked beautiful. I went back to my bed and hugged my knees, signaling that she could explain. I can't believe I'm doing this.

"Ok." She said taking a breath. "Look Rehyn I first need to tell you about my scars. Ok so this one." She pointed to her ear and shrugged her jacket off. "It's from a Vay. When the Cloud first created them I was one of the test subjects. They had locked me in a room with two other males. They were bigger and stronger than me. The Cloud did not know at the time that they can't make women hybrids. The way they created a hybrid was from a mixture, lets not even get into what that is made from.

Well moving on.

I was trapped in a room with men that were new bred Vays. And new Vays are when they are the scariest and most defiantly the dangerous. One scratched me from the top of my ear to my shoulder blade. I'm 3/4 deaf in my left ear." I didn't know that about her. I hope she isn't trying to win me back with her pity by telling me this. "I was going to leave the Cloud after this happened but in doing so they twisted my words around to make it sound like my fault and since they had switched my words I accidentally sworn my loyalty without even knowing I had. My wrists are marked and cut like this."she showed me her wrists and I looked out of the corner of my eye. I didn't want to give her the satisfaction of knowing that in someways I feel sorry and forgive her. "One time I was caught trying to run away and they locked me up for two weeks. But instead of being free to roam around in my cell, like you, I had been shackled. I never tried to run again."

I felt so bad for her. I know I shouldn't show her sympathy but I did and I hated myself for it. "And last but not least my neck. I was caught. Caught for trying to help you and Kennan escape so whoever told them, told Torrent, he came out one night while you were asleep and I was on guard. He didnt take you but he lifted me up by the neck with one hand and told me that my family was to be killed if I didn't bring them back and that I would be used as a toy for all of the Vays if I didn't bring you back. He almost killed me but before he did he let go. I was so scared and I still am." I knew Torrent was a ruthless killer but I didn't know that he would single handily do that to someone. He is the true definition of a monster.