Who We Really are

Chapter 10

A.N. two quotes this chapter:

"Crying is cleansing. There are reasons for tears, happiness and sadness." - Dionne Warwick

"A forest bird never wants a cage." -Henrik Ibsen

Chapter 10

Ryan looked terrified. He knew he wasn't supposed to be in here. He knew if he got caught he would be killed. "Ryan I am so so sorry."

"No it's okay" he said shaken out if his daze. "I have to get out of here though. You have to cut the wires and soon. The water will make them appear, the code will erase the memory and the wire cutters will disable the camera. I will be back down here but so will a Cloud worker you have to get rid of the water and wire cutters." Then he left.

How was I supposed to get rid of something in a jail cell. But I did what I was told to do. I found a chair I could stand on, which I don't know why we didn't use that in the first place.

I retyped the password on the first one we did just to be safe then I cut the wires. I guessed that there would be one in all the four corners of the room. I found them all with water and didn't have much left.

What am I supposed to do with the wire cutters? But then I thought that since the cameras were hidden some other things could be hidden also so I started pouring a small bit of water about every arms length around the room.

I heard footsteps, and so I slid the water bottle and wire cutters under my bed hoping whoever comes won't look under my bed for some odd reason.

I lay down and acted asleep as best I could. The footsteps grew louder and as they did it started to sound more like a man in dress shoes. I closed my eyes as the person opened the gate. "Rehyn, so nice to see you again." Great it was Torrent. "Oh your asleep he laughed and sat on the edge of the bed. "You look so much like your mother. Which is a good thing because your father was not a man I would want you to look like. He was a bad man inside and out." He touched my hair and took a strand of it and just kept it in his hand. I tried not to shake and tried to keep my heart at a regular pace. "He was not good for your mother. She could've and should've done much better than the deadbeat your father was." That's it! nobody insults my father. It took all my willpower not to reach up and choke him right then and their. "It's a shame that I have to kill you in a few days. I'd always wanted a granddaughter. Oh I almost forgot, I know that you learned what the Vays were, I sent them out to find your little friend. Colton, was that his name? Ah well the poor guy couldn't run fast enough for my," he paused. "Creatures." He said and at the same time he pulled the strand of my hair. It took everything inside of my not to scream and go all crazy, rabid monkey on him. Then he walked out. And made sure to shut the gate after him.

I kept telling myself that he said that Kennan was dead only to get inside my head. To mess with me. To kill me inside. To make my living life hurt more than the pain of killing me.

I just lay in my bed for a while staring up at the ceiling with nothing on it. I realized that was to painful for me because I kept thinking about things I could've done differently and Kennan.

I needed to be doing something so I got up to look under my bed for the wire cutters and water but they weren't there. I scanned the room and didn't see them. Then I checked under the bed again. I checked my pockets. What could've possibly happened to them? I crawled under the bed and ran my hand along the wall. About one fourth of the way my hand gave way and I almost fell forward. What was that about? I crawled closer and stuck my hand in again and it went through. Then I stuck my head in. It was a hidden trap door. I saw the wire cutters and bottle laying in the grass right next to my head. I could leave! I would be free. I could find Kennan. We could be free and find the Seam and leave. We would finally be free.

Then I thought about it. I wouldn't actually be free. It's the same thing I told Kennan. As long as the Cloud knows I'm still alive I will never be completely free no matter how hard I try, or how far I run.

I heard someone open and close the cellar door and then Ryan called my name. I didn't want him to know about the portal so I quickly grabbed the water and wire cutters and made my way back into my prison. "What are you doing under the bed?" he said when I finally got all the way out. I would be lying if I said I didn't hit my head a few times.

"Long story. Here take these I finished what you wanted me to do." I sat on my bed leaning against the wall.

"I wanted you do that because I needed to tell you something that the Cloud would never be able to get access to."

"Oh ok. Well what was it?"

"Jessica got Kennan so that he can save you. And he will. Then you guys will go and escape. Through the Seam and leave and never look back at this place." So Kennan wasn't dead. Oh thank God

"But as long as I'm alive I will never be free. I will never be safe. And you guys don't seem to grasp that concept."

"Just be glad that you won't die by the Cloud killing you because they will do the worst thing possible to hurt you before you die. And the things they torture you with will not kill you." He sat down next me. "Trust me, I grasp it completely."

"But my life means nothing if I can save everything."

"No don't say that. You know that he won't stop being the ruthless killer that he is just because you are dead. The only way he will stop if he is dead."

"That's why you don't want me dead?"

"That's why we don't want you dead. I don't want you dead. Kennan doesn't want you dead. Especially Jessica."

"I highly doubt that."

"Look Jessica is the only girl that they works for the Cloud. All she wanted was a friend and she was helping you but.-"

"Then she wasn't." I said. "look I've heard it all before and I get it. I don't understand her situation with him. Ok I get it I don't want to hear it again." I said and started crying. I just broke. Something inside me snapped. I couldn't keep pretending everything was going to be ok when it wasn't or never would be. Ryan put his arm around me in a comforting way and I cried even harder.

I cried for my mom.

I cried for my dad.

I cried for my sibling, and Kennan's parents and the world and everything. I cried for me and Kennan. I cried for Jessica. But I mainly cried for the person that I was. The person that died with my parents.

Ryan embraced me and rocked me back and forth and I just sat there and cried.

"I miss him." I said when I calmed down a bit.

"I know. I know." He said and I started to cry again. It felt so nice to finally let it all out. He just held me and at some point I fell asleep and Ryan was still being a shoulder to cry on.

***

When I woke up, Ryan wasn't there. I knew he wasn't going to stay all night with me but that would've been nice.

I stood up, and got really dizzy. And my eyes hurt. I'm glad there wasn't a mirror because I don't want to see what I look like right know.

When my dizziness finally went away I crawled under my bed. I was going to escape. I was going to run away. It probably wasn't smart, but for me it was the only option.

I crawled out of the hole and I was free. I wasn't in the building I was outside in the fresh air.

I realized that if I was to stay in my prison I would be dead in two days. Maybe since I am escaping I'll be alive longer.

Once I exited I ran as fast and as far as I could. I had no idea where I was or would end up.

When I thought I had ran far enough I looked back, that was a bad mistake because next thing I knew I went head first into something big and hard.

I could tell it was person but I didn't know who it was. Great. It was probably a Cloud worker.

I looked up at the person and I instantly recognized who it was. Those big hazel eyes I could never forget and the shaggy brown hair.

Kennan.