The Russian

Chapter Thirty Five: Together Again

Bucky and Amira spent hours on the playground. Buck was hesitant, but he was there to catch her at the slide, push her on the swing and hold her when she climbed the monkey bars. Amira laughed and giggle the whole time. She yelled about how much fun she was having with her Daddy.

I felt tears wanting to fall. She was happy. He found her, and now she is happy. That is all a little girl wants, her daddy to love her and care about her.

I wasn't that lucky, but I would never let my sister have that pain.

"Mika, I'm hungry." Amira wined as her and Bucky came over to the bench.

"You want Killian's?" I ask her. She nods.

"Can I get the pasta slice again?" She asks.

"Ziti? Yeah sure babes. You up for it Buck?" He looked at his covered metal hand, then back at me. "How about we take it to go, and bring it to Daddy's place?"

"Can we Daddy?" Amira asks. Buck swollowed, smiled and nodded.

"Yeah, we can do that." He said. Amira jumped up and down in excitement, then stood in front of Bucky with her arms up it the air. "What?"

"Carry me, please?" She said, giving him puppy dog eyes. I saw the distrust in his eyes, not from her but himself. He slowly picked her up and put her on his hip, and Amira atomatically snuggled into his side. Bucky gave a light smile and pushed her blonde hair out of her face.

"Alright, lets get some grub."

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After we picked up a large pizza and some ziti slices, we walked over to Bucky's place. It wasn't too far away. Bucky carried Amira the whole time, and not once did Amira want to be put down. We got to the faded green doors and I took out my keys.

"I kinda prepared..." Bucky said sheepishly as I unlocked the door. We walked in and I gasped.

Toys were litter on the floor. A plastic doll house was filled with furniture. There was a lot of duck tape holding it together, but Amira wouldn't care. On the mattress there was a small fuzzy pink blanket Amira could use for naps. A broken teddy bear sat on the bed, waiting to be cuddled.

"Is this for me?" Amira asked. Bucky nodded and Amira started to bounce with excitement. Bucky put her down and she ran to the new toys. Me and Buck went over to the small Island to put out the pizza.

"Wow Buck, this is amazing." I tell him as I prepare Amira's food. "You didn't have to do all this."

"I wanted to spoil her. And now she has toys and stuff here when I can see her." Bucky says with a smile.

"How does it feel being a Dad now?"

"Weird, but nice....I'm just worried how she will react to this." Buck said as he raises his metal arm.

"Well you should do it soon. She will probably wanna coat it in glitter." I chuckle. I take Amira's plate and put it at the seat.

"What's glitter?" Bucky asks. I start to laugh.

"Its awful and gets everywhere." I explain. "Amira, come eat."

Amira puts down the dolls and I loft her up on to the seat. Me and Bucky stand and Amira looks at Bucky.

"Daddy, why do you still have your jacket on?" She asks. Bucky looks at me and I shrug. "матушка says to take your jacket off before you eat."

Bucky looks at me and sighs. He takes off his jacket and gloves, revealing his metal arm. Amira looks at it with wide eyes.

"You were the one that hurt матушка and took Mika...." She said. Pain was in her tone.

"Amira, that wasn't him. That was bad guys making him. He would never hurt us okay?" I think explain to her. She nodded then looked at Bucky.

"Daddy, did God Mean for you to be like this or was it an accident?" She asked him.

"What God are you talking about?" I ask her, trying to by Bucky time.

"Thor is a god. His Daddy is a god and his brother and his mother and hi-"

"I get it." I laugh, I look at Bucky and he takes a deep breath.

"I don't know. I wish I did but I don't." Bucky tells her. Amira just smiles at him.

"I don't care as long as I get to see you!!" She said then shoved more pizza in her mouth.

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Amira was fast asleep in Bucky's bed. I cleaned up everything and my phone began to go off.

"Hello?"

"Mika! Where have you been?" It was Steve.

"Me and Amira are on our way home now. We did exploring." I lie.

"Get here soon, Natasha coming over."

"Okay bye." And Hung up. Bucky looks at me like A kicked puppy. "They want us back."

"Do you have to?" He asked. He was sitting with Amira, weaving his fingers through her hair.

"They will coming looking and I know you aren't ready for that." I told him. I sat down next to him and leaned my head on his shoulder. "I'll see if I can come tomorrow."

"Can you bring her?" Bucky asked with hope.

"It will bring up suspicion. Maybe this weekend." I sigh. Bucky looked defeated and hurt, and it sucks knowing I caused it.

"You didn't cause it, Mika." Bucky said. I look at him confused and he tapped the side of my head. "Connection remember."

"Remembering is not my forte right now." I sigh. "I remember the memories but not the feelings. They expect me too and hover, it just drives me nuts."

"I get it." Bucky sighs. "I wanna be here for her, but I don't trust myself."

"She will call you when she can. I promise." I tell him. He gives me a side hug and a kiss on the forehead.

"You are too good to me." He says.

"I won't let her be pulled away from her father because of them. Especially since he wants her too."

"Thank you."

I took Amira home soon after, she was asleep the whole time. I tucked her in and quickly went to the roof for a smoke. It was quiet up here, and I could think without being expected to understand.

"Thought you quit?" I hear Clint say.

"Thought you retired." I say back.

"Yeah well, that never works out." He chuckles. He plops next me and smiles.

"So when are you telling everyone about Barnes?"