Once

Here we go again

Chapter 11

Logan POV
I just sat in the shower and thought about how I can possibly allow myself to come back with Glenn. I can't do this to anymore. I can't keep looking for her and never find her. I guess that makes me stupid; if she would have wanted me to find her then I would have by now.

I am just waisting my time by looking for her. She wasn't there for me at all; at least not since I was two. Ever since then it was just me and Tara, my dads sister. She would always tell me how much she loved me. The one question that I would always ask her was 'If she loved me then why'd she leave me with that monster?'

I just remember the look that she would give me and she would always tell me the same garbage every time 'Because she loved ,and still loves, you.'

I was taken away from Colin just a couple days after my mom left me. When Auntie Tara cane over to see how I was settling she walked in on him burning me with a cigarette. She just ran in and grabbed me away from him. I just remembered how he would beat me every chance that he got.

Flashback 2 &1/2 years ago
Maggie POV
"Logan what do you want for supper?" I asked him and he just sat there and looked deep into thought.

"Well I mean mom, would it be so bad to have pizza?" He asked and smiled.

I just giggled and put my hands out and he ran to me. I had him on one hip and my phone in the other. I dialed the number and ordered our usual. A medium deep dish peparionie and cheese with stuffed crust with two ranch dips. I let him choose what we drink and of course he ordered iced tea.

We sat there and for the first time, it was silent. "Logan whats the matter?" I watched as he shifted uncomfteribly on the couch.

He just shrugged his shoulders. This is nothing like my little Logan, he always tells me everything. I just shifted my body so I was facing him and he turned so his back was facing me. I just cleared my throat and set my cup down.

I got up and said,"Come on then. If you are going to act like this then you are going to get ready for bed." After I said that he still didn't move. "Logan!"

He whipped around and it wasn't until then that I saw that he had tears streaming down his face. "Hey I'm sorry for yelling at you. You know that I am never mad at you right?"

"You never wanted to have me did you mom? Please tell me the truth." He said with a straight face. What was I going to tell him? For gods sake he's only two and a half! What am I suppose to say that I was a prostitute and that I was raped? Not to mention that I got kicked out because I was pregnant with him?

"I can't right now Logan. You won't understand but I can tell you that you weren't planned but that doesn't change a thing. Yes you were a surprise but you are the best thing that has ever happened to me. You're all that I ever wanted and wished for." Thats all I could tell him for now. I know that he is a smart boy for his age but that doesn't mean that I can baby talk to him. If I do he gets mad at me.

"Thats not the whole story mom. I thought that we agreed not to lie to each other. Remember?" He asked and now he was raising his voice.

"How could I forget?" I bluntly say. I know that I would hurt his feelings.

"How about I ask some questions and you HAVE to answer them truthfully?" He questions and I nod my head. "Why do I not have a dad like everybody else?"

"Because your dad was mean and tried to hurt us." I said and he looked confused. I sighed,"Logan when you were in my tummy and I told your dad he kicked me put of the house. I'm not just saying this because I want to buy because I want you to know. I love you so much and it is his loss that he doesn't have an awesome kid like you." I state the truth and he hugs me.

"One more thing." He states and I nod my head. "Why don't I have any brothers or sisters? I mean all of my friends have sibblings but I don't."

Just as he asked me that one question all of the worst memories came fludding back all at once.

I sighed and said,"Just because now please can we just go to bed?" I noticed my eyes were starting to water and I'm guessing that Logan saw it too because he came up and hugged me.

"I'm sorry mommy its just that when I was at the park yesterday a man came up to me and said something bad."

"What did he say and who was he?" I ask starting to grow impatient with the fact that someone was talking to my son and telling him things that weren't true.

"He said that his name was Colin and he was my dad. He told me not to tell you or something bad would happen to us. I'm sorry mommy." He stopped to hug me and I hugged him back. "He said that he wanted to hurt us and that you didn't want me because you were only eighteen when you found out." He stopped and looked up at me.

I just looked down into his beautiful green eyes. I just thought to myself that no one could take him away from me and I will always protect him with my life.

"Mommy why did you keep me? Look at where it got you now. Twenty one years old with a kid that never listens or respects you." He bowed his head and started to cry.

"Yeah look where it got me at. I am twenty one years old with the most amazing son anyone could ever want. And just because we fight sometimes doesn't mean that you don't respect me or listen. But I would never change a thing for the world. Thanks to you I mean something to someone and I have a reason to come home every night. I have my very special little man to wake up to every morning." I smiled down at him. I will never leave him alone in this world.

END OF FLASHBACK
Logan POV
I sat there and thought about when I asked mom 'why did you keep me?'. I finally realised that she did love me and I can't just give up on her because she would NEVER give up on me. I will go on the mission tomorrow and help Glenn find his wife because he never gave up on me.

AN/ Yeah so now Logan is going to go. Do you think that he will still remember his mom? I may do something to kinda spice up the story a bit.🤔😉 Anyways... only until next time; see ya lovely people.😊