I love you, Dork. (A Kevedd Fanfiction)

February 7th

Kevin's POV

The first thoughts I have when my eyes open are "I shouldn't be alive". But, something about the brightly lit room and welcomed face of Edd surrounding me suggests that I am indeed, not dead.

"Edd? How long have I been out." My voice stirs Edd from his light sleep. 

"You're awake! Oh, Kevin you've been asleep for two days, I thought I had lost you for good." Edd sobs, pressing his head into my stomach. 

"You haven't lost me Edd. I am yours for as long as you'll take me." 

"We've got a lot to discuss Kevin, let's not rush things." Instead of responding back, I just lay allowing for the silence to fill the space between us. Nothing in this world can compare to this feeling I have in this moment. Although our problems aren't resolved, the feeling of Edd pressed against gives me a sense of a stability in this fucked up world. 

Edd's POV

"Can I please just  have five more minutes with him." I plead with the nurse, coming into expel me from Kevin's hospital room.

"Alright, five minutes." She agrees, turning on her heels into the hall. 

"Please stay." Kevin mumbles, tears brimming in his eyes. His gorgeous green eyes, that I first fell in love with all those years ago.

"You heard the nurse Kevin, we only have five minutes."

"No. I mean stay with me Edd. "

Suddenly, I become aware of what Kevin is trying to ask of me. It is quite clear we cannot refrain from seeing each other anymore, if I take away one thing from this horrid incident it is that life is fragile. On the flipside of the coin, I still feel so much guilt for already holding Kevin back so much in life. How could I possibly live with myself knowing he is settling.

"I wish I could see into your mind Edd." He says, bringing me back to reality.

"Sorry. I have just got a lot to think about Kevin. Of course I love you,  but we need to first worry ourselves with getting you better."

"I'm fine Edd." 

"People who are 'fine' don't try and kill themselves Kevin!" I scream, the tears once again returning to my eyes. 

"I'm sorry. What can I do to prove that I am stable enough for you?"

I pause for a minute, wanting to fully collect and order my thoughts before I speak again.

"I will give you the same proposition that I did when we first started dating. Prove to me you are a changed man, you have one week to do so. You need to show me that you are stable and that you have enough self reservation to live with or without me." 

"One week." Kevin repeats, clearly agreeing to my ultimatum. 

"One week." I repeat back.