I love you, Dork. (A Kevedd Fanfiction)

Late January

Edd's POV

Rolling out of bed, the pain in my chest is almost unbearable. Since that night, every waking moment I am left in an agonizing, unshakeable pain. My parents have started to take note of my drop in motivation and positive demeanor.

"Eddward, it is imperative that you forget about this boy and adjust your attention to your school work. I can't imagine your AP classes are going well at this rate." 

"Mother, if you really knew him...If you really knew what he meant to me, your tone would be less pointed." Instantly my mind wanders to Kevin, about what we were, and how he would never forgive me for what I have done. 

My mother speaks, noticing my lack of concentration. "All you ever do is sulk around the house, daydreaming about that delinquent. Your father and I can hardly sleep at night with all your screaming." 

"Screaming?" I question. 

"Yes, screaming. Your mind is never at rest, even when you are sleeping you cannot escape his grasp over you." She says, actual notes of sadness in her voice. Although we aren't always on best terms, it's comforting knowing my mother still cares about my deteriorating mental health. 

"Do you think he will learn to live without me?"

"As soon as he realizes you will survive without him the better dear." For once, my mother's callus words ring true to my ears. 

Kevin's POV

Waking up, my first instinct is to text him. Then reality sets in. He isn't my dork anymore. Forcing myself out of bed is almost unbearable these days, 'what's the point' often runs through my head. Living without Edd, is like a heroin addict living without their fix--eventually they will break without it.

My feeble attempt at looking presentable, is just that. Feeble. At least I am going to school showered, and wearing matching socks, which is more than what I could say for myself last week.

"Kevin, are you doing alright? Something has been off about you lately." My overly involved 2nd hour teacher says to me, clearly concerned. 

"I am fine, and nothing is off." I retort, a bit too defensively. Clearly taking a hint, and not wanting to pry my teacher walks away, leaving me alone with my thoughts.

The only thing I can focus on since that night is Edd. He was like the moon to my tide, controlling and changing the course of my life with ease, it was as though a twist of fate brought us together. Now, since he's been gone my life has been directionless and I don't know what my future holds without him.