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(Chance)
If there is one person I'll idolize it will always be my dad. Chase is right. My father is very hard working and he never gave up. He almost but he didn't. Life nowadays isn't easy and if you're unfortunate to be born unwealthy then all you got is your brain. The brain is enough to put yourself in success someday. And I'm glad that my father did the right thing even if his life isn't easy. Once, he told me that his life is full of regrets. In every aspect of his life there are his regrets. There are times he's at his best and there are times his at his lowest that he can barely survive. One thing he didn't regret is when he made mistakes and he learnt from them.
I grew up with a close relationship with dad. He brings the best in me and he can make me behave. Because of our closeness, he always tell me stories. Moms should tell the bedtime stories to their sons but mine's different. When I was a kid I couldn't sleep without my father's bedtime stories. Maybe because my father's bedtime stories are different. They weren't cliché and boring. They were extraordinary. Now that I'm a grown man I understood why his stories were so fascinating.
My favorite story was when he told me about a young boy who was born very unfortunate. He told me the young boy was very afraid of the world. He was scared to take risks. He was scared of the people for he thought that people would do nothing but to hurt him. His father had hurt him ever since he was born. His mother had hurt him when she left. His siblings had hurt him when he grew up. Through the childhood and puberty pain was all he received and darkness was all he was. And then he got fond of the pain. He got used to the darkness. But then the boy met a girl who was very unlike him. The girl was his exact opposite. He didn't expect that girl to be someone who would push herself inside his dark world. He didn't expect the girl to be his companion through the dark. He didn't expect the girl to be someone who would hug him and tell him everything will be alright. He didn't expect something different because pain wasn't new to him. Happiness was.
The girl gave him happiness. The girl slowly lightened up his dark world. The girl slowly stitched up his wounds and bandaged his scars. And for that the fear came rushing back. What if the thoughts he had in mind were wrong? What if she's not good for him? What if he's not good for her? What if she'll hurt her one day? What if she'll leave? He was afraid because the pain and the dark he was used to before were gone. He was afraid because he didn't want the pain to come back. He wanted the new thing he felt when he's with the girl. He wanted the happiness.
He was afraid of so many things that he had to build walls around him. He was so afraid that he had to shut the girl out. He was afraid so he had to distance himself and come back to what he was before he met the girl. Surprisingly, he felt lonely. He was alone and he wanted to smash his walls down, run back towards the girl and be happy with her again. But he couldn't because he thought he shouldn't. The girl knew the boy. The girl knew he would shut him out. The girl knew the boy was afraid so she did what she did the first time they met. She pushed herself in and this time he didn't do what he did. And then he finally got what he wanted ever since; happiness.
