You Say Reject, I Say Goodbye

S E V E N

Erick's POV

If you were me, what would you do?

Unexpected.

Who thought he would ask that kind of question. He was looking straight into my eyes. Digging my soul.

What should I say? What answer should I give to him so he understood?

I just wanted him to know I made a big mistake which would stick into my life forever, like the ugly memories to his. The only wish I ever most wanted was for him to show a little bit forgiveness.

To let me prove I had gotten better than myself in the past.

And now he did give me the chance, I was drowned in confusion and desperation. His heart was hidden deepest inside him that I doubted it even existed.

But it was there, it existed since he's starting to open it for me. Now what's left was to give him the right answer.

What was the right answer?

I didn't know what to say. It was as if I was at loss for words, lacking of the ability to speak.

The debate was still going on and on in my head for two minutes.

"Go." my face immediately paled at the word.

Tightening my fist in the bed cover, I almost jumped from my seat. "W- wait! Please give me time I-" his eyes still never left mine.

"Then what is the answer?"

What would I do if I were abandoned by my own family?

What would I do if I were betrayed by my best friends?

What would I do if I were raped by my pack?

What would I do if I were rejected by my own mate?

Those thoughts kept pounding inside my head as I pulled my hair to ease the pain.

What would I do?

What should I say so I wouldn't lose him?

A stinging pain from my palm was not enough to make me notice that my hand bleed again from fisting. It also wasn't enough to make me realize my own tears falling hard down to my chin, nor the throbbing pain in my heart.

The only thing to wake me up from my misery was the sudden warmth on my shoulder, sending lovely sparks I was longing for forever.

Raising my head to see Oliver staring back at me, I waited him to say that everything was okay. That he would give me one last chance and I would never let him down.

Reality was never that good enough.

"You know the answer." he said with a blank face. No smile, no frown. No anger, no love. There was no trace of any expression.

Despite that he sounded so broken. Like he had nothing to live for yet that was not true at all.

I would die if he died.

"If you were me, you would so the same." Oliver sighed turning away. "But you can't accept that."

No, no no no don't turn away!

My hand was itchy to touch his chin and moved it so he could see the truth in myself.

"What I'm asking you is to give me a chance." I said with trembling voice. "Just one last chance.."

"And risk myself to break?"

That's it.

I grabbed his delicate shoulder and pinned him down. A smirk crept up my face at the shocked look finally showed on his face.