Wake Me Up

Chapter 8

Andy's POV : It's been a month since I've seen Monica. Last time I saw her I got punched and hurt her wrist. Also told her that I didn't love her, instead I pitied her. I had gone to her house to apologize so many times but she wasn't there. I was starting to think she went back to San Antonio.

I felt guilty and horrible for everything I did and said. But there was no going back. I didn't even have her number for crying out loud. After she left, I smoked blunts almost everyday. Yesterday I ran into Dave and offered him the spot in our band again BUT once again he turned it down.

Today I decided to just walk around Dallas. I stopped by 'Deep Sushi' and ate lunch. Next I went to a music store and bought myself some CD's from The Used, My Chemical Romance, and Bad Suns.

Later on I passed by a creepy cemetary. I had always passed by it but never actually gone inside. My mother had told me my grandparents laid here. I don't remember them much from my childhood though.

I pushed past the gates. I searched for 2 graves with the last name Velasquez. It took me a while but I had eventually found them.

"Hey Grandparents, I don't really remember a lot about you but I do know you guys are the reason I started watching Star Wars. By the way I bought a new to- I mean *cough* action figure of Han Solo," I continued "Um, theres this girl...I kind of messed up really bad. She hates me but I love her."

I talked to them for about 3O mins before I heard the gates open again. I turned around to see Monica. My mouth dropped. What was she doing here ??? I said good bye quickly to my grandparents and hid by a nearby tree.

She was wearing an all black dress that went 3 inches past her knees. The top layer of the dress was lace. She had 2 bouquets of daisies and cherry blossoms. She went to a tomb stone that was 3 yds away from the tree I was hiding behind.

She got on her knees and pulled out a cross necklace beneath her dress and held onto it, as if her life depened on it. She began talking.

"Hola Ma..." Monica said as she spoke in fluent Spanish. My heart froze. Her mother had died ? Zenaida was her name and she was like a 2nd mother to me.

"I miss you so much. You didn't deserve to die...it's all my fault. If I hadn't gone to San Antonio, you would have survived. I hate myself for leaving you ! I don't care how long you've been gone or how ever many years will pass of you being gone because I will STILL cry and miss you like I did the first time it happened. Why'd you have to take her Jesus ??? She could've been here for me right now..." her head was in her hands. She just sat there and cried.

" Ma I don't know what you would think of me if you were here. Would you think I'm the daughter you've never wanted ? Would you be disappointed in me ? You would most likely hate the way I've been treating Andy." I froze at the mention of my name.

"He sprained my wrist," she let out a small laugh. "I deserved it though. Hey also guess what ?! He never loved me. He pitied me. Guess you owe me those five dollars," she chuckled again but this time she cried and screamed into the sky.

"Why did you have to leave me ? You should be here for me. Ma you're my best friend. What's a girl without her best friend ? nothing. I'm nothing and I've always been nothing. When you left I just realized it. You gave my life meaning and no one has ever done that. I don't think I can live for anyone else besides God and Jesus. God, i miss you're cooking. Your laughs. Your goofy self. The way you disliked my music. The way you took care of me. The way your eyes lit up from Dad. The way you shipped Andy and I..." She trailed off. "The way you always wanted and I to be together...I-I'm  sorry I can't be here anymore. B-b-ye ma, I love you. I brought you these daisies and these cherry blossoms are for Hope's b-" she was cut off my sneeze. Oh god. I'm dead.

"Andy ? Andy !" she yelled out. "Did you just listen to me talk personally with my mother ?!" she shouted. Just as I was about to answer her, she spoke "you know what. Just forget it. This is the wrong place to be yelling and my mom wouldn't want me to chew you out. I hope you know that I'm doing this for her and JUST for her." "Why didn't you tell me ? You knew how much she meant to me. She was like a second mother to me..." I said with tears in my eyes.

Monica closed her eyes and took a deeo breath as if trying not to lash out at me. "Andy, YOU left without telling me. You changed your number just so I wouldn't call you. So dont blame me," she said calmly. I just nodded my head guilty.

Monica noticed she was still holding the cherry blossoms are quickly dropped them nicely on her mother's grave. "I better go." she said as she was about to walk off.

I grabbed her wrist and pulled her back. She winced in pain. I mouthed a sorry. I pulled her into a tight hug, at first she didn't hug back but eventually did as I spoke, "I'm so sorry you had to go through that by yourself." I felt warm tears seep into my shirt.

I GUESS THIS WAS A FILLER ??? MAYBE I'LL UPDATE AGAIN IN A FEW HOURS BUT TELL ME WHAT YOU THINK. WHO DO YOU THINK THOSE CHERRY BLOSSOMS WERE FOR ???