When You Left Me

Indecisive minds alike

Jasmine

Waydi and I drove in silence from the restaurant until I had started to cry, my hormones getting the best of me.
Why did I feel so terrible? It's not like I didn't want Laurent to know about the babies, I just didn't want to watch as he disowned them just because he thought they were another mans seed. I could hear and nearly feel Waydi's resigned sigh.

"Are you mad at me Wayye ? I didn't mean for things to get out of control like that.", I whispered as I tried to control my weeping. Waydi looked at me and after noticing, his hand softly wipes away a tear.

"non ma douce, I'm not mad with you. I know how hard it is for you. It wasn't your fault about keeping them a secret. Larry just sometimes is blinded by his love for his twin. I'm sure he didn't mean to snap like that either." Waydi looked back at the road as the light turned green, driving slowly as though he was lost in thought. 

"Do you think I should tell him Wayye?" I bit my lip, slightly worried about Waydi's answer. He continued to drive, staring out at the long winding road. After a good ten minutes, I was beginning to think he wouldn't answer my question until we came to a stop at his apartment. He rested his head against the steering wheel for a second then looked back at me.

"Do I think you should tell him?... The answer that I want to say is no, while the right one seems to be yes. I know better than anyone how you felt when Laurent didn't believe you about Shaun and so I completely get why you're hesitant to tell him about the babies. But I could only really look at it from my viewpoint, and to me if you were pregnant with my children, I would want to know, despite all the bad things we been through. Children can change a man Jasmine. Worse case scenario, he doesn't believe they're his and you come back to me and we will continue on like we have. Best case scenario for you , he believes you and your children can have both their parents in their lives. I think you both need to sit down and hash everything out first though. After all, Laurent must still believe that you were sleeping around with Shaun back then.", I looked at Waydi, he seemed so tired and hurt. I knew that if I told Laurent about the twins, Waydi would still somehow get hurt by any of the two scenarios.

I sighed, for what seemed like the hundredth time today and got out the car. As I walked to Waydi's apartment, with him following behind me, my mind drifted off and fought with itself about my indecisiveness. I really didn't know what to do, I just hoped that whatever I choose will be the right choice.

Larry

By the time I had gotten to Lylahs house, Liloh had been knocked out in the backseat. I handed her and her to go bag to her mother, my mind distance. I didn't realize Lylah had spoken to me until I felt her tap my forehead.

"hellloooo, earth to Larry. You in there?", Lylah asked.

"huh? Oh Oui , I'm sorry Lylah, my mind is far away right now. I found out a lot of things today and it's fucking with my emotions a bit." I mumbled in reply.

"Oh, what happened? Bambii hit you with a skillet again?" She laughed as I winced in pain at the memory.

"non, nothing like that haha, it actually isn't something about me and Bambii this time. Let me ask you something Lylah. When you got pregnant, we were already broken up. Did you think to never tell me?", I truly had wondered about this.

Lylah scratched her chin in thought, "actually, I had thought that. To be honest, I was never going to tell you. I only decided to after I had a talk with my mom. She told me that no matter what issues the parents have, the child should never have to suffer for something that wasn't their fault. I thought over it for weeks before I decided she was right. Our daughters life came first and if dealing with your crazy ass made her happy, then I would do so with a smile. After all, a child is precious and should be treated as such. I don't regret it, look how much Liloh loves you.",She smiled and I felt the mutual love between us. It wasn't sexual or intimate, just the kind two people had when they overcame all the bullshit of their past relations.

I left a little while later after kissing my daughter goodnight. I fought with myself in the car over and over about telling. I wanted Jasmine to be the one who told Laurent, I didn't want to have to be the one to throw that bomb on him without proof and expect it not to explode. I got to my house, deciding that I needed a little more time to think it over. But as I walked in the door and heard music playing, I had a feeling that wasn't going to happen. I walked towards the backyard where the music was coming from. I spotted Lau sitting down and just as I was walking to him, I heard a voice that turned me cold.

"Aye Lau, what you want to hear next?"

" I don't care bro just play something." I stopped walking as they both noticed me. I was completely thrown back mentally as I saw Shaun smile and say.

"What's up Larry? Been to long broski."

End Chapter