When You Left Me

It's Not Worth It

( Laurent's POV )

I was mad and I was taking it out on Jasmine. I knew it was wrong but it wasn't something I could stop myself from doing. I watched as she played with Liloh and my heart yearned for her to be with our child. I wanted a little girl and I wanted her with Jasmine. If only I could stop acting like a jerk but I got annoyed at how little she thought of herself. Why she couldn't see the beauty in her past self was beyond me. Yeah I should probably apologize, it wasn't her fault she felt that way. People had been cruel to Jasmine her whole life and it took its toll on her mental. I was getting ready to go and speak with her when Larry cussing at my side caught my attention. "What's wrong Larry?"
"Bro look over there, look who Lianna came in with." I turned to look at what Larry was so worked up about. Our sister Lianna, who was a female version of us except she dyed her hair red, was talking with our younger sister Lisa. "I don't see nothing Larry, what's the pro...." I shut my mouth as I saw Waydi. The only coherent thought in my head was wow. And so the argument broke out.

When maman spoke up and told us to stop bickering, I felt ashamed at causing her to snap like that. I could feel Jasmine's warmth from her body leaning on me and I tried to suppress my anger with Waydi and Lianna. But when I saw Waydi smile at Jasmine and she smiled back, a tug of jealousy pulled my heart and I walked away from her.
About twenty minutes later, Larry came to me asking if I saw Jasmine. "She was in the living room last I checked Larry."
"Yeah well, she's not there now and I can't find her. I haven't seen Waydi either."
Now before that wouldn't have worried me but the way Waydi had been lately had been to weird. His want to have Jasmine was making him crazy and clouding his judgement. Larry and I searched the house and the backyard. I called Jasmine's cellphone and her ringtone played in the kitchen. Fuck, she left it. I was starting to panic when Lianna got in my way.
"Move Lianna, I need to find Jasmine."
"Why Laurent? Do you not remember what she out you through? How could you forgive her?!" I looked my sister right in her eyes "Lianna if you don't move, I will cut off all of my financial help to you." Her eyes widened and she moved. Shame that money could do so much. I brushed past her and went and grabbed the 55 caliber handgun from the glove department of my car. I kept it there just in case of anything getting out of hand. I walked up and down the street, searching for Jasmine. I called her name hoping that she'd answer. What if she doesn't? What if she's so mad at me for being mean to her and decided to stay away from me. I was working myself into a complete panic until I heard her scream. "Waydi stop please!" I ran after the scream and got to the park. I listened and could hear crying. I rushed towards the sound and what I found caused my mind to blank out. Waydi was on top of Jasmine, forcing himself on her, probably damn close to raping her. I ran to them and kicked Waydi on the side of his hips which caused him to fly off Jasmine. The shock and pain from the hit caused him to lose his breath and he couldn't speak. I walked slowly to where he was and aimed the 55 at his chest. "Wow Waydi, so all that shit you were talking about me and Larry hanging with Shaun, and here you are turning into him. You must be so proud. You claimed to love her but yet you would force what she wasn't willing to give?! You are no better than that filth I left laying in ICU. But don't worry, you'll join him soon enough." I cocked the gun back and watched as Waydis eyes opened in horror. Before I could pull the trigger, I felt hands wrap around mines. I knew who it was yet I refused to look at her. "Laurent, don't do this. It's not worth it."
"He tried to rape you Jasmine! He tried to do the exact same thing Shaun did. Why shouldn't I put this damn bullet in his head?! He'd deserve it."
"You would give up your freedom and life for a man who is damn near a shell of himself?"
"No, I would give up my freedom and life for the woman the man tried to hurt."

( Jasmine's POV )

I was speechless. He would give up so much for me and that scared me. I was scared that his life would go down a spiral that he had no place in. I didn't deserve Laurent. I softly grabbed his hand, "let it go Laurent. Let's go home. We will leave this night behind and in the morning we will start anew. Just put the gun away baby." The last word did it. His eyes finally came to look at mines and he sighed. He lowered the gun and put the safety on then put it back in his pocket. "Okay. Let's go home." Laurent wrapped his arm around me and gently dragged me away from the scene. I looked back at Waydi and could see the end of our friendship in his eyes. What a bittersweet feeling it brought.
We got to Laurent's car and left without telling anyone goodbye. Silence was the only sound on the ride home. We pulled up to the house and went inside. Laurent went to take a shower and I sat on the couch. My mind was reeling with everything. Laurent's love was everything I wanted and nothing I should have. I didn't want to drag Laurent down. I had caused this man so much and tonight I nearly cost him his freedom. All because I couldn't tell a man before that I didn't love him. I was selfish and I didn't deserve anyone's love. I went to the house phone and dialed a number I knew I had to. " Hello, Paris Airlines."
"Yes, I would like a ticket for Florida please."

( End Chapter )