This Is Forever

Chapter 20

After we eat in silence, we go back upstairs and I walk in the direction of my room instead of ours.

"Where are you going?" He asks.

"You think I'm just going to forgive and forget that easily?"

"I told you I'm sorry, Nicole, I love you more than anything on earth, what else do you want me to do?" He asks.

"Christian you let another woman on you... You were just centimeters from kissing her..." My voice cracks and I turn my head away.

"I don't even know if I can trust you..." I mutter through the pain.

Everything aches with each word, aching for him, aching because I might lose him, aching because I can't trust him, aching because I can't let go of my pride to forgive my everything for one simple mistake... I'm not making it easy this time.

He doesn't say anything, he just stands there looking how I feel.

I turn and start walking back to my room down the quiet hallway. It is quiet until I hear quick footsteps behind me that I know are Christian's.

He grabs my waist and turn me around, pressing his lips to mine. Hard. I don't stop him, I don't hesitate to kiss back.

I relax my tense muscles and put my hands on his chest. He pulls away and rests his forehead against mine, "If you think I'm going to let you go easy, you're wrong. I need you."

"Christian what the hell, you couldn't get rid of me if you wanted to." I laugh and he smiles and kisses me again.
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(Listen to Break On Me by Keith Urban or Fragile by gnash)
I ended up going back with him, and we decided to get some sleep, then go to the beach.

I'm barley awake when I feel his hands slip around my waist and pull me closer to him. I gave in pretty easily... But hey, love is weird.

He kisses my forehead and sighs. He doesn't know I'm awake, or maybe he does. I feel something warm and wet hit my arm and jump up immediately.

Chris wipes his face, pretending to rub his eyes, "What? What's wrong?"

"You were crying."

"No I wasn't."

I touch his face and it's slightly wet with tears he didn't quite rub off. He never cries... He cried once when I had an anxiety attack so bad that I nearly passed out in his arms.

I stroke his face with my thumb and he slips his hand under my shirt and holds my side like if he lets go he'll lose me.

I pull him close and rest my chin on his shoulder while he quietly breaks on me. I mess with his hair from behind until he calms down, which takes a while.

He hasn't been this upset ever, but he's been strong for me for so long. It's my turn.

"It's okay to break, love..." I whisper and he slides his arms around my small frame and holds me tight.

Him crying makes everything inside me ache. Why is he always crying when he's the one who hurt me?

"God, Nikki, I can't lose you..."

I shake my head, "You won't."

He pulls away a bit and presses his lips roughly but passionately against my lips.

"Please never leave me..." He says, pulling away and cupping the side of my face in his hand.

I smile at him with tears in my eyes, "Never..."
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A/N
Sorry this is short I have finals 😭
What do y'all think is gonna happen in Hawaii besides what already happened? 😏😏😏😏😏