This Is Forever

Chapter 27

Crawford sat with Chris and I for a while, they let me see him. Once they said they were going to give him the medication, Crawford left.

Chris has been awake and in excruciating pain, and away from me. He squeezes my hand, trying his hardest not to yell as loud as he can.

He really never cries in pain, but he's squeezing his eyes shut and a few tears slip from the corners. I wipe them away and gently kiss the side of his head.

"You're gonna be okay," I stroke his hand with my thumb. They already explained to him what could happen, he agreed just to get out of here.

I think about what happened again, and Sam. I hate the kid. I hate him for what he made us go through. For what he's making us go through still. For what he thought was a good idea.

My heart breaks watching my love like this. The doctor says he's going to start, but I barley pay attention.

He grabs a big needle and Chris freaks out. I kneel down next to his bed, "Hey.." I say calmly and he looks at me, "I'm right here. I'm not going to let anything happen to you, okay?"

"Yeah..."

They let me get in the bed with him so he wouldn't freak out. He lays his head on my chest and the doctor grabs his arm. I gently run my hand through his hair to calm him down, "I'm here..."

He doctor gives him the huge shot in the crease of his arm and I feel him cringing against my skin. I hold him close me, now realizing what I just let them do. They slowly pull it out of his arm and I feel Chris relax against me.

"My head still hurts."

I laugh a bit, "It won't work immediately."

He nods and holds on to my waist. He quickly dozes off and the doctor comes and talks to me, "After today, and after he wakes up, we can test for the symptoms. Obviously, he did not die, so that's very good."

I nod, "Test?"

He nods, "Test his hearing, fertility, and after about a week we can check his muscle but there's a very low chance of that one as well."

"Okay... When will he wake up?"

"Most likely within the next five hours."

I gently slip from Christian's grasp and slip a pillow under his arm. I hate to leave him, but I have to deal with this. I tell the doctor I'll be back and walk to my house instead of calling Crawford back; I need to cool down anyway.

I get the spare key that's lodged inside the door frame and go inside. Rocky barks at me, then sniffs around looking for Chris. I kneel down and lift her face to look at me, "Daddy isn't home.." She cocks her head at me, then runs off to play.

I grab my car keys and lock the house up again, then drive to Sam's house.

I get there and sit in the car for a minute. Is this really worth it? I know why he did it, and I know he's sorry... But this is the second time he almost took Chris from me... It's his fault... I should forgive him, but I'm gonna get mad.

I get out of my car, slamming the door and walking fast up to his doorstep. I ring the doorbell and Sam answers with a shocked face.

"Nicole? What are you doing here?"

"You asshole!" I yell and barge in his house.

"What?!"

"Chris is in the damn hospital again because of your little stunt you pulled! You almost killed him again!"

He stares at me in shock, "What are you talking about?"

"He woke me up this morning at three because he was screaming in pain! It's because you thought it was a great idea!" I point at his chest and he backs up, "You poured oil on the floor! You tried to hurt me but hurt him instead! So I guess you got what you wanted! You still ended up hurting me!"

"Nicole I-"

"You thought it was funny didn't you?! To pour oil on my floor and say "this will teach her!" But guess what? Now Chris and I can't have a family because of your selfish act!" I yell as loud as my voice will let me after this morning.

He scratches the back of his neck, "I'm so sorry... I didn't think-"

"No you didn't. You didn't think about how this would affect anyone!" I let tears fall from my eyes at this point.

He can obviously see I'm very angry. I don't know what I would do without Chris and he almost took him from me multiple times.

"I didn't mean for this to happen, Nicole..." He says calmly; at that moment I realize he didn't intentionally do this.

I'm taking my anger out on him because his stupidity started this, and no, he shouldn't have done it in the first place, but he didn't know this was going to happen.

I feel him wrap his arms tightly around me. I tense up and just stand there in shock. I hesitantly, and very lightly, put my hands on his back just enough to show I acknowledge him.

I push him away and run towards the door, "Nicole! Wait..." He yells after me.

I stop with my hand hovering the doorknob. He walks closer and I stiffen up again.

"I'm so sorry, but if you ever need anything, just give me a call... Please forgive me."

I give him a barley noticeable nod, "Forgiven... Never forgotten, Sam..."

I swing the door open and run out. I run to my car and drive back to the hospital.

I go back to his room and he's up already. I shake my head, "Why?" I laugh.

He shrugs, "Was I supposed to be out longer?"

I nod. I go to his bed and sit on the edge with him. I grab his hand and hold it tightly in mine.

"Thank you for staying with me..."

"Are you kidding? I'd never leave you." He pulls me to him and kisses my head.

"How are you feeling?" I ask.

"So far I can hear, and I'm not dead, and they took me for a walk and said my muscle should be fine... They're still waiting for results on the... Other thing."

"Chris," I laugh. I know what he means but he's so shy.

"I'm scared for the results." He blurts out and I jump because he surprised me.

"Why?"

He sighs and I lay my head on his chest, "Nikki, you know I want kids..."

"Uhh, I never agreed to that," I joke and he laughs, "Yeah yeah... Seriously though, what if we can't?"

"I'm sure we can find a way if we really want it... Don't worry, my love." I kiss his cheek and lay my head back down on his chest.

"We'll figure it out..." I reassure him again.

He rubs my back, "I know..."