This Is Forever

Chapter 41

I get to Kirsten's house and she lets me in. I set Rocky down on the floor and she sits by my feet because she won't leave me if she's somewhere she doesn't know.

"What happened?" She asks while hugging me.

I hug back and tell her that I over reacted, but he called me difficult and blah blah blah.

We go sit on the couch and she's quiet for a second before saying, "I'm not choosing sides, but if you had an anxiety attack it wouldn't kill him to stay an extra two minutes. And I think you did over react a little bit but I don't know how your anxiety is..." she sighs, "but if he wants to call you difficult, then you'll show him what difficult actually is, eh?"

"Guess so..." I say and flop back on the couch.

A few hours later after Kirsten and I went and ate, did girl things like face masks, I see my phone light up on the coffee table while Kirsten and I are eating popcorn and watching Edward Scissorhands.

It buzzes as Christian's contact lights up my screen. I ignore it and it stops after about 20 seconds. Two minutes later, it rings again.

I let it go to voicemail once again, but once again he calls back. It stops ringing, but then I get a text. And another. And another....

From: forever lover💍❤
"Nicole where are you"

From: forever lover💍❤
"Nicole I'm so sorry for what I said, please call me"

From: forever lover💍❤
"Baby please come home, call me, answer my texts, something"

From: forever lover💍❤
"If you don't answer me I will search until the ends of the earth to find you"

From: forever lover💍❤
"I'm so sorry my love, I wish I was more thoughtful in that moment. I didn't mean it. You're difficult but I wouldn't have you any other way"

From: forever lover💍❤
"You're my one and only, I wouldn't trade you for the world and I need you"

From: forever lover💍❤
"Come home please"

From: forever lover💍❤
"I wouldn't want to deal with anyone else's difficulties but yours. It's you, it's always been you, I don't know what I'd do without you"

From: forever lover💍❤
"Please call me or something"

My eyes well up and I bring my knees to my chest and wrap my arms around them. I put my head down and Kirsten looks at me. She wraps her arms around me and rubs my back, "I know he loves you sis, even before you guys were dating you were all he ever talked about," she says, "you're his life, you always have been. He didn't mean what he said."

"I know, but I want him to know what he did."

She giggles a bit, "You're petty, but I love you anyway."

I giggle a bit and lift my head, wiping my tears with my hoodie sleeves. We finish the movie and I take Rocky outside to go potty.

We go back inside and I pass out on the couch.

I wake up to my phone ringing again with Christian's contact.

Once it ends, I see, "Missed call from forever lover💍❤ (8)"

I sigh and slide off the couch. I pull my things out of my suitcase and do my morning routine. Kirsten peeks in the doorway, "Good morning sunshine, whatcha doin'?"

"Chris blew my phone up, I think he got it, I'm gonna go home."

"Alright, well call me any time and come back any time."

I give her a hug, "Thank you."

"Any time, sis." She says.

I put all my stuff in my car and take the long way home. I slowly pull in to my driveway and get out of the car with Rocky.

I fidget with the house keys for a minute before finally finding the right one and letting myself in.

I see Chris in the kitchen with something in front of him while blasting music. I wince at how loud it is and walk into the living room, shutting off the insanely loud stereo. Chris looks up from his position with his head in his hand and sees me.

He jumps up and runs to me, throwing his arms around me, picking me up and spinning me around.

"God, I missed you," he puts me down, "I thought I lost you."

"You can't lose me even if you wanted to."

I lay my head on his chest and he holds me to him with his hand on the side of my head.

"I'm so sorry," he says, "I wasn't thinking, I was in a hurry and saying it hurt me once I thought about it because it hurt you."

"It's okay..."

"No, it's not okay. I'm so sorry baby, I can't stand hurting you and making you push me away was the worst feeling in the world."

I stand on my tip toes and kiss him, I pull away and lay my head back on his chest, "I'm not going anywhere, it's okay, I over reacted but it's all over now."

"I love you," he says while squeezing me and pulling me closer, "I love you more," I smirk at him.

He shakes his head with a smile, "Not possible."