Complicated

Chapter 4

I walk upstairs with Erich, his hand in mine probably for the last time. When we reach the room, Erich slows down and looks uncomfortable.

"Are you ok?" I mock the look glued on his face.

"Yeah..I just.."

"Just what?" He looks up at me and his nervousness looks to be covered with concern. But I doubt he would be concerned about me after the mess he's started.

"Have you been...crying?" His face is back to nervous, coming to the conclusion that I've found out. I forgot about my face that was stained with tears minutes ago until he brought it up.

"Yes. Do you know why?" I pick my words carefully. I need him to tell me instead of me tell him I found out. I at least deserve his honestly.

Erich stays silence for a moment. Opening his mouth and then closing it. Finally, he manages to speak.

"Vicky..I don't know what to say. I'm obviously not in my right state of mind and-"

"Who's fault is that?" I snap.

He looks down, showing me he knows the answer. Now that were on the same page..

"How could you. How could you do this to me?" I begin to cry again. "Its almost been a year, Erich. A year of being together. We've done nothing but kiss and I find out that suddenly you go beyond that..with my best friend? Who does that Erich! How could you!"

I suck in the air packed in the small room just to cry it out.

"Wait a second. You didn't want to have sex with me! You told me that and you know-"

"No! That's a lie! I said I wouldn't now! You know how I am about that! I said that I wanted to wait and not be like half the sluts on this campus!" I scream and I'm letting my frustration takes over my mouth.

"It doesn't matter becau-"

"You were a virgin, Erich. Just like me and you end it on my best friend? Really? You ruin our relationship to go smoke & have fun with my best friend?"

"I-I" he's defeated and we both know it.

"You're sick, Erich." Have fun with her." I storm out. He stays behind in the room and doesn't dare to chase me or follow. As far as I'm concerned, Toni & Erich are out of my life.

Toni. As I make my way through the crowd yet again, Toni grabs my arm from her spot on the couch. I harshly throw her hand off and flip.

"Don't fucking touch me!" I scream. As loud as I can. So loud that people turn around to watch the show as the virgin storms out of the frat house just another time. It won't be the last.