Complicated

"Ha-Harry" I choke on my dry throat,  fumbling over my thoughts, finding it hard to process what's happening. A familiar warmth meets my mouth and I allow access. Our tongues move swiftly, in sync, in one motion wrapping around each others. If I were to look at someone doing this a month ago, I would call them every name in the book. Slut. Whore. If only I knew it would be my life as of now.

His mouth lifts from my mouth, taking a moment to moan in my ear. The deepness in his voice set off alarms in my body. The humming noise, the vibration. It sends tingles down my spine, a feeling I never knew before him. I never understood this feeling, the feeling of loving. The constant butterflies he sends loose in my stomach. I never knew it existed. I only thought it lived in movies and all things fictional. I was way off.

Harry moves to my neck, swiping his tongue further down my body with every motion, taking time every couple kisses to suck on my inexperienced skin. He glances up at me, sending lightning through my bones, igniting me like a drug. The green in his eyes burn into mine and I'm in a trance. Hes at my chest and I nod, biting my lip. A smile plays on his as he lifts my shirt over my head. His eyes grow big and I instantly feel embarrassed and overexposed.

"You're beautiful." He grins, tugging off my bra as his mouth goes to my breasts. I can feel every motion of his tongue, circling and circling. I never could have imagined me here, in his bed.

An involuntary moan escapes my lips and I feel him smile as he lowers his mouth down my stomach, kissing with every motion. He slowly removes my jeans to reveal my panties. I feel exposed but he gives me comfort with his warm grin.

"Alright. This is going to be different, Victoria. You've never done anything like this, ok? Tell me everything. How to make it better, how-"

"Mmhmm" I cut him off, nodding. I want him to do this. The bit of fear escapes me when his mouth brings itself to me, rejoining the contact. I grip his sheets. I feels so different but amazing. His experienced tongue moves swiftly back and forth, picking up speed. I feel his tongue lower and go deeper into me. Its all so new but I want it to continue. I need it to. I feel my stomach and legs tingle. I close my eyes and try to hide my moans. He picks up speed and I am at lose of word. I feel the pit grow and finally....

This isn't how it began. It sounds so strange to start off writing this down. I have never had any sexual relationship with anyone before Harry. The last boyfriend I had told me he loved me and then I found out that he cheated on me with my best friend, Toni. We were so close and I didn't ever let her explain herself. My world came crumbling down before me and I thought everything was over. Until all of this started. So let me start this off the way it really started.