Few days back...
EVETTE'S P.O.V.
"Can we talk?"
Those three words almost stopped myheart from beating. What does Toby have to say to me?
And now, Toby and I are just right outside the venue. As we are standing in front of each other, I could feel my heart pounding oh I just wish Toby could not hear it. My hands are becoming sweaty as well, I couldn't stop myself from gripping the hem of my shirt tightly. That's really how nervous I am right now. Did I really do something wrong? Did I make him angry? Did I upset Toby? Did I say something bad to him? What is really going on?
"I heard.." the man in front of me has finally decided to break the ice between the two of us. I chewed on my bottom lip, played with my fingers and swallowing saliva every two seconds. Can't he just say it all in one sentence!?
"You look pale.."
"Huh?" I questioned, raising my head but froze when I realized that Toby's face were just inches apart from my own. I backed away, as I lost all my balance and found myself in the arms of the man I'm secretly in love with.
"Are you okay?" Toby asks. I could literally feel his breath on my ear, which made my face heat up and went as red as an apple.
"I'm okay!" I screamed, pushing Toby away from me and turning to my back. Oh I can really imagine how I look right now.. I cannot let Toby see me like this, I'll only get laughed at. Shutting my eyes tightly, I expected Toby to spin me around to face him once again but it didn't come. That was weird..
"Toby..?"
He was looking down the ground, with his hands in his pocket as he slowly turned to face his back on me.
"That was not the first time that you've pushed me away," I heard him whisper as I started to grow a little confused. What is he talking about?
"-but I don't know... you pushed me harder this time.."
Huh?
"It was as if... you did not want me to touch you."
"Toby—"
"It was almost like—" Toby carefully spins himself around to look at me, "—you hate me, Evette."
"What?" I gasped. "No! That's not true! I was just-"
Toby chuckles, before turning around once more to his back. "Maybe Yojan was only joking.."
"Joking?" I asked, and now walking closer to the man before me. "What are you talking about? What did Yojan joke about?"
"About you.."
I froze. Eh?
Toby looked at me over his shoulder, then he giggles. "She told me you like me."
Suddenly, I couldn't hear a thing. My whole body has started shaking. I couldn't lift a single muscle. Nothing was coming out of my mouth, no matter how hard I try. And then my head started spinning, my thoughts are everywhere and it was like I don't even know what is going on anymore.
This is almost a rejection.
This is really close to rejection.
That is the only thing that I never want to know. That was the only reason why, up until now, I have not yet confessed my true feelings to Toby.
I don't want to feel rejected.
I know that really well... even though I still have not confessed to him yet, I already know that this will be his answer. I know that it was impossible right from the start, but now it has come to this..
