I'M HIS POSSESSION (Nepumoceno Series #1)

IHP 26

IHP 26

- A U S T I N -

"Mom.. mom I'm so sorry... I'm so sorry mommy..." Umiiyak kong sabi saka yumuko.

Hinawakan ni mommy ang mukha ko at pinahid ang mga luha ko. "Son, look at me, anak..."

Inangat ko ang mukha ko at tinignan ang magandang mukha ng aking Ina. "Wala kang kasalanan, you don't have to be sorry okay? You don't have to. Learn to forgive and forget son... Maayos na ako. I'm fine here.. Now, go and fix yourself, don't you ever let her go. She loves you son. She loves you..."

Nagising ako at napabangon sa kama. Tinignan ko ang paligid ko at napakagulo ng kwarto ko. I am so wasted without maddisson. Kapag kasama ko siya ay nagiging masaya ako. Kapag anjan siya sa tabi ko ay mas nagiging confident ako. Kapag anjan siya ay malakas ang loob ko. I feel so complete with her by my side. Now I feel so empty and lonely.

What have I done? I just pushed the love of my life away. I was so stupid! Because of my anger nadamay siya. I remember her face when she was begging and crying for me to not leave her and break up with her. I remember her breaking down, i remember her face that is so scared.

Napaluhod ako at nasabunutan ang sarili ko. They were all lies. Ayokong mawala siya saakin. I love her. I love every part of her. Hindi ko kakayaning mawala siya sa buhay ko. Hindi ko kayang makita siyang may ibang kasamang lalake. No. I would never let that happen. 

I am so dumb to let her go. She stayed with me even though she saw all my flaws. She stayed by my side kahit na tinutulak ko na siya palayo. Pero hindi ko siya masisisi kung umalis na siya. I was such a jerk. I break her heart into pieces. Ni hindi ko man lang inisip ang mararamdaman niya noong sinabi ko iyong masasakit na salitang iyon.

I regret pushing her away. I lost the girl who stayed by my side when nobody else was. I lost the girl who did everything for me. I lost her because of my ego. I lost the girl who stayed by my side even though I threw harsh words to her. I lost her who tried to understand me even if she really don't know what the hell is happening with me.

Don't worry mom, I'll everything to win my girl back.

-  M A D D I S S O N -

Nandito ako ngayon sa children's park. I somehow want to be alone for a while, to think. To think about the things that is happening with our lives. Yumuko ako sa duyan at pinag-laruan ang mga daliri ko.

"Baby..."

Nanigas ako sa kinauupuan ko ng marinig ko iyon. Maybe I'm hearing things because I miss him. Umiling ako at dinuyan ang duyan.

"Baby..."

Napatayo ako at lumingon. Para akong binuhusan ng malamig na tubig. Austin is standing right in front of me. He looks so wasted. From his bloodshot eyes, pale lips and face, his messy hair and his dark under eyes. But he still looks so handsome. Lumapit siya saakin at hinawakan ang mga kamay ko. Napa-titig ako sa kanya.

"Baby, I'm so sorry for everything I have said..."

Namumuo ang luha sa kanyang mga mata. Nanghina ako ng makita ko iyon. Kinagat ko ang labi ko.

"What do you want?" I asked.

"Baby I want you back... It's not true that I don't love you, that I want you out of my life, they were all lies... I truly love you baby and I want you back please come back in to my life... Please baby... I'll do everything to get you back, to win you back.."

Nangilid ang luha sa mga mata ko. Call me stupid and dumb but I love him at ayokong mawala siya sa buhay ko! Niyakap ko siya at humagulgol ako sa kanya. I don't care what other people might think but he is the love of my life. Softness is not weakness, It takes courage to stay delicate in a world this cruel. Niyakap niya din ako ng mahigpit at hinalikan ang aking ulo.