Deception

Chapter 19: Saying Goodbye

The night after everything happened with Camille I didnt get out of bed that entire day. James was blowing up my phone but i was ignoring him. I didnt want him fucking with me. As i laid in bed i heard my door open. Fuck this means his ass is here.
"Larissa what the fuck man im worried about you!" He yelled as he ran to my bed. I rolled over ignoring him. He took his shoes off and got in the bed with me. He smelled so good like Irish Spring soap and Polo cologne.
"Baby please tell me whats wrong." He pleaded with me.
"Camille is dead." I said crying.
"What your friend what happened?" He asked. I told him the story. The truth.
"SHIT Larissa what the fuck? You didnt tell the doctors you gave it to her did you?" He asked.
"No of course not im not fucking stupid." I said.
"You sure you aint stupid? Cuz' stupid shit seems to always happen around you!" He snapped!
"Fuck you!!" I yelled as i ran to the bathroom. As much as i hated to admit it he was right. As always. My life was fucked up. I needed to pull it together because James party was in a couple days. James was knocking on the bathroom door.
"Baby im sorry i know this is hard for you. Come stay at my house for a few days you dont need to be alone." He pleaded with me. I agreed. I came out the bathroom and grabbed clothes for at least 2 weeks. I didnt want to be alone. Against my better judgement i called Camille's mom to see how she was doing. To my surprise she didnt curse me out.
"Hey sweety im sorry about how i acted at the hospital. Its not your fault she was on drugs, i told that girl to calm down." She explained.
"Its okay Ms. Vanessa i could understand." I told her.
"Well im glad you called the funeral will be this saturday i would love for you to come." She said.
"Ill be there." I told her. Oh shit. James's birthday party was the same day. I decided not to tell James i would just have to be late. I felt so much better being with James. While James was at work i pretty much spent the day applying for schools. I decided to go shopping for a dress for Camille's funeral. I never ever thought i would have to go to my best friend's funeral. I tried to be as quick as i could. Luckily I already got my outfit For James' party.
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The next few days seemed to drag on by. When saturday finally rolled around i was not ready for Camille to be burried. I still couldnt believe she was gone. One good thing that came out of it was i havnt TOUCHED any cocaine. When i woke up i gave James a kiss.
"HAPPY BIRTHDAY BABE!!" I yelled waking him up. He looked at me all crazy.
"Girl where are you going?" He asked me.
"Well today is Camille's funeral im going to go and meet you at the party." I explained.
"Damn girl i wanted to walk in my party with you!" He said sounding like a child.
"Look babe im not going to be long I will be on time to your party." I said as i bolted out the house i was already late. I didnt even have time to put makeup on. Her funeral was at a run down building in Seattle. It was definately packed. Camille had a big family and was well liked by her peers even though she hung out with me. Nobody really liked me they assumed i was stuck up but no one ever took the time to get to know me. When i walked in the building i got nothing but blank stares and dirty looks. Im sure everybody knew i was the last person to see Camille alive. I sat down next to an older woman. I saw a few teachers from the school there. I started to get this sick feeling in my stomach. How could i sit here in Camille's funeral knowing im the one who caused her death. Its mortifying. This seemed like the longest funeral ever. I never really been to a funeral. This whole experience was new to me. Seeing Vanessa up there talking about her daughter and choking back tears made me sick. I wanted this funeral to be over already. After the funeral was the viewing. We all walked up to her casket and said our final goodbyes. She didnt look like herself she looked like wax. Then again she looked like she was sleeping. I put a rose next to her. She was always talking about love and how she wanted a romantic boyfriend who gave her roses for no reason. She really was a dreamer so there was her rose. As i was walking out the building i saw a group of girls i recognized from school talking.
"Hey Larissa how did you get here?" One of them asked.
"I drove." I said smugly.
"Well we on the bus we all going the same way so can we ride with you?" The girl asked. Wow are these bitches serious? They never said two words to me now they want a ride! Ill do them a favor and drive off and skird off in their face. Just as I was thinking about being an evil bitch Vanessa came walking up.
"Hi sweety would you mind giving Camille's friends a lift to the repass?" She asked in a sweet tone with tears still in her eyes.
"Im sorry Ms. Vanessa the what?" I asked.
"The repass the party to celebrate Camille's life its the good after the bad." She explained. What the fuck? I didnt know they had parties after funerals. I had to go get ready for my boyfriends party. Im just going to drop these bitches off and jet. The funeral was enough for me I didnt want to stay at that depressing setting. While i was driving i was so annoyed. Its clear these girls in my car were the most ghetto bitches ever.
"In case you forgot my name is Lynn this is Nisha and thats Tawney." Lynn explained to me.
"Yeah i Remember you guys im sure you guys all know my name." I said blandly.
"Of course we know your name its all up and through the streets." Nisha said. Did this bitch really just go there? Does she not know i can pull the fuck over and kick her black nappy headed ass out of here? Im not gone' be cruel though its the least i can do for Vanessa.
"So you the same age as us and I know no regular 9-5 can get you a whip like this so...."
"So what?" I snapped at Tawney. Its like these bitches were taking turns being in my business.
"So how you afford this shit? Camille told me you got a spot on the water im trying to be like you!" She said. Wow im amazed that broad can NEVER be like me but wishful thinking on her part.
"I suggest you get a rich boyfriend then." I smiled as i said that because i know thats not the answer she was looking for. I turned up Lil Wayne's version to "Oh Lets Do It". I knew it was Camille's favorite song we always blasted it in my car. The rest of the car ride went smooth until James called.
"Larissa where the fuck are you? You are supposed to be setting up with my mom!" He said with a whiny tone.
"Look nigga I told you today was my best friend's funeral I will be at the party as quickly as I can!" I yelled at him. His selfishness was starting to really piss me off.
"Babe im sorry but moms is trippen because it was supposed to be a surprise."
"I didnt ruin it your moms big mouth did." I hissed. He laughed because he knew that that woman couldnt keep a secret even if a gun was to her head.
"Alright im going to stop stressing you out just get here soon." He said sounding more calm and understanding."
"I will babe i wont miss your party for nothing in the world I love you." He told me he loved me before he hung up the phone.
"So was that your rich boyfriend?" Lynn asked.
"It sure was." I said with a big smile on my face. We were finally almost to this repass thing. I tried to beat the crowd but i must have been driving too slow because alot of people were there already.
"Alright here you guys go." I said with my car still running.
"You not staying?" Nisha asked.
"No i cant i have somewhere i gotta be." I explained.
"Oh Rich boyfriend is more important than her best friend." Nisha said to the other two. I sped off i made sure i was by a nice muddy puddle. I didnt get to see but i sure hope i splashed those bitches. I drove back to James' house. He already had the dress i was wearing laid out across the bed. I put my hair in a cute bun, put on my makeup and then the dress. It was only about 5 so the party hadnt started. I missed the setting up part which i really didnt mind. What annoyed me was that i had to drive all the way back downtown. Since it was after 5 traffic was going to be terrible. FUCK! James is going to kill me. Even though i just seen my best friend for the last time I had to pull it together for James. It should only take about 10 minutes to get downtown from James' place but it took me about forty minutes. When i finally got there the place was already packed. Lots of nice cars parked. I sure hope i didnt see any of my old clients. I could imagine how embarassing that could be for James. In all my scrambling to get to his party i realized i forgot his gift. SHIT! Hopefully no one noticed. When i walked in the party all eyes were on me. I have to admit i was looking pretty damn fly. James came rushing to me with a champagne bottle in his hand so i knew this fool was already drunk.
"Wasup baby bout time yo fine ass got here." He said with a slur while grabbing my ass giving me a wet sloppy kiss. I didnt want to cause a scene at his party but he was about 10 seconds away from getting slapped. His mom came up to me looking at me with a stank look in her eyes.
"Im sorry i couldnt help you set up ma i had a funeral to attend." I explained. Her look of disgust turned into a sympathy look.
"Aw sweety who passed? What happened?" She asked.
"Her friend over dosed on cocaine Larissa couldnt get her to the hospital fast enough." James blurted out. Oh my god why the fuck would James blurt that out. His mom didnt say anything else she simply patted my back.
"Try to have fun babe." James said to me. I walked away to get a glass of champagne before i slapped him. As i was standing by the drinks counter one of my old clients. I tried my hardest to hide from him but it didnt work.
"Larissa? Dont be trying to hide i know that body anywhere." He said.
"So I take it you're the one who gave my number to James." I said with a serious look on my face.
"Guilty." He said as he tipped his hat. I scowled at him & attempted to walk away. He grabbed my arm.
"Hey i could use some company tonight." He said with a perverse smile on his face.
"Fuck you!" I spat as i stormed off. Why would James invite that prick? I hadnt been there twenty minutes and i was already ready to go home. For the next few hours i had a few drinks and mingled with the people there. The party turned out to be fun after all. Im glad i came. It was nice ending to a horrible start.