Deception

Chapter 4: Aint Life Grand

As i opened my eyes everything in the room was so light i had to put my arm over my eyes. I then felt a sharp pain in my arm i looked and saw that there was an IV in my arm. Where am i? I thought to myself at that moment i remembered the horrific thing i had experienced with Lamar. The so called boy of my dreams. I trusted him and he took my innocence why me?? I got so scared and started screaming at the very top of my lungs!
A white woman in pink scrubs came running in.
"Doctor Mitchell shes AWAKE!" she,yelled outside the room. I started squirming trying to rip the IV tubes out my arm. A middle age white man came running in.
"Sweety please calm down you were heavily sedated you will make yourself sick."
"What is going on?" I cried.
"Ms. Watters your father is right in the cafeteria do you remember anything. Why were you laying on Pacific Highway."
"Wheres my dad?" I questioned.
"Anna Go and grab Mr. Watters let him know his daughter is up"
"Im on it." She said as she ran out the room.
"How did I end up here?"
"An employee at the Mcdonalds you were passed out in front of found you and called an ambulance. I began to cry because everything was happening so fast im still trying to come to grips with what the fuck happened to me. My dad came running in with two detectives.
"Oh my god baby what happened?" My dad said kissing me on my forehead with tears in his eyes. Him seeing me all beat up must have killed him.
"He hurt me daddy and its all my fault." I cried.
"Who hurt you baby I swear on my life I will kill that motherfucker!" I never seen my dad in a rage like this. I was almost certain if Lamar walked in that second my father would have shot him right between the eyes. The detective grabbed my dad and said, "Sir i know this is a devastating thing that has happened to your daughter I promise we are going to lock the son of a bitch up that did this. I began to cry harder this was all so surreal to me. The female detective asked my father to exit the room so they could talk to me alone. They didnt want him to go into a fit of rage again. My dad did as the officers said. The lady officer took a seat on my bedside.
"Hi larissa My name is Detective Lisa Hopkins and Thats my partner David Green." She said as she pointed to her partner. She was beautiful in my opinion she was way too pretty to be in a fucked up profession like this." Do you feel well enough to speak with us?" She asked I Sat up and firmly told her yes. I wanted Lamar to suffer for what he did to me. As i looked in the mirror I started crying again my eyes were both blackened, I had a feeling in my stomach that felt like hell, and my lips looked like i was stung by bees repeatedly.
"Ok sweetheart explain what happened so we can bag this bastard." Detective Green said. At this moment all men disgusted me I didnt want to open up about the situation to Detective Green.
"Detective Green I would only like to speak to Detective Hopkins alone." I stated.
"I understand." He said as he left the room. Detective Watkins had her pen and paper ready to record my statement. I explained to her how i had just started seeing Lamar and out of no where he raped me. I began to sob again. "Its ALL MY FAULT." I should have went home when he offered to take me."
"This is not your fault Larissa you are the victim." She reassured me.
"Do you have a picture of this Lamar character?" I got out my phone and pulled up his facebook page. When i saw his picture I became enraged i wanted him to die for what he had done to me!
"What is the day?" I asked Detective Hopkins.
"Its Monday night you have been in this hospital for a day." My dad came back in the room. "Larissa you are coming with me I haven't even been able to get ahold of your mom." I didnt say anything about it. I couldnt believe my mom didnt even bother to care that I did not come home last night. Detective Hopkins asked if Lamar used protection. I told her no. "Do a rape kit on her pronto."
A nurse came up to me and lifted up my blanket on the end where my vagina was. "What the fuck you doing?" I snapped at the nurse.
"I need to swab your vagina."
"NO!!" I yelled. "Ok no rape kit the girl has been through enough we will find this Lamar boy. Detective Green protested. All i wanted to do was go home. I no longer wanted to be in this depressing hospital room.
"She can be discharded tonight." Doctor Mitchell informed my dad. About 10 minutes later my mom came running in.
"What happened to you baby?" My mom cried looking at all my wounds.
"Patricia it Took you three days to get your sorry ass up here im taking Larissa home with me." My dad argued.
"No the fuck you not I have full custody of her you cant take her!" My dad looked at the detectives to see if they would chime in but they didnt. My mom has full custody of me I have To go with her.
After i was released my mom took me to get food but I couldn't eat. When we got home i just went to my bed and went to sleep. All I could think about was what happened no other thoughts were in my mind. I waited until the following Monday to go back to school my face was pretty much back to normal. When i walked down the hallway i dont know if it was in my head it seemed like all eyes were on me. When Camille spotted me she ran up to me.
"Girl everybody is saying you let Lamar fuck and you regretted it so you called the cops on him." She said to me. I gave her a look of disgust. The bullshit that spins around that school just kills me. I just kept walking I didn't say a word to Camille. As i continued down the hallway Digs and Skip intercepted me.
"So you let Lamar fuck and he dropped you so you call the police?" Digs said harshly.
"Its not like That he raped me!" I screamed."
"Fuck you bitch!" Skip hissed at me. I ran out of the school. I needed some air. Everybody thinks the whole Lamar thing is my fault. The rumors that are going around were not true at all. While i was in my chemistry class people kept flickin spit balls on me. I looked back and there jasmine was.
"I told you lamar was gonna fuck you over." She said with a smile on her face. I was not listening to a word she was saying because I KNOW What Reeealllyy happened. While in history I recieved a request to go to see my counselor. I rolled my eyes and headed to Ms. Garner's office. When i got in she gave me a big hug.
"Im so sorry about what Lamar did to you. I was happy when the police dragged him out in handcuffs."
"Whats this about?" I asked uninterested.
"I want you to talk about your feelings if you keep everything bottled up you are going to make yourself crazy." She responded.
"Im fine" I snapped at her and left her office. I couldnt believe the police arrested Lamar on campus. Thats why everyone hated me!" Nobody talked to me not even Camille My So called Best Friend! Did everyone seriously think the bullshit Lamar is feeding them is true. Camille of all people should know the type of person i am. Fuck them i dont need them  ive decided to move with my dad far away from Des Moines Washington. I called my dad on my lunch break crying.
"Daddy everybody including Camille thinks that i sent Lamar to jail for no reason and it doesnt help they arrested him at school!" I cried.
"Oh my god baby im so sorry. I cant pick you up now im in an important meeting just go home to your moms and i'll get you later." He told me."
"Alright dad and im ready to move with you i dont care that mom has full custody im 17 I should be able to choose ." I challenged.
"Well we will talk later you just turned 17 you are still a minor so that means it matters." He stated. "Ok." I said Sounding down. I ended the conversation on that note. My dad seemed concerned but deep down inside his fancy job came before me. He always plays that "shes coming to live with me card" but he knows i legally cant, so hes pretty much just blowing smoke out his ass. I went to the attendance office and told the lady i was leaving. She was such a bitch. "I need to speak to your parents." She said without even looking up at me.
"Look i just got off the phone with my dad he said i can go so im leaving." I snapped at her.
"Well go ahead and leave if im not able to confirm this with your father you WILL be in trouble." She said to me. She was speaking to me like I was one of these fuck ups here trying to skip school to go smoke weed. Fuck her she didnt know what i was going through. Then all of a sudden a wave of carelessness flew over me.
"Whatever BITCH!" I spat at the attendance lady. As i was approaching the doors i flipped her off. That felt good. I have always hated her. As I walked down the street to the highway to catch the bus to get home i saw Digs and Skip coming my way.
"SHIT!" I thought to myself. My plan was to keep walking and pray that they didnt notice me. I rushed passed them relieved that they didnt say a word to me. As i continued to walk a felt a blunt force to the back of my head that caused me to fall to the ground. Skip and Digs hovered over me.
"This aint over girl." Skips said to me. His breath smelled like horse shit. It went perfectly with his mouth full of crooked rotten teeth. I turned my head to the side so i wouldnt have to smell it.
"Leave me the fuck Alone." I yelled at the two.
"Look bitch just because you couldnt handle being a booty call you dont send niggas to jail over it." Digs said.
"He RAPED me and left me on the fuckin street to die." I said with tears in my eyes. I took out my cell phone and showed them pictures of what i looked like in the hospital.
"Does that look like a friendly fuck to you?" They both stared at the pictures then looked back at me. They didnt know what to say. Before they could say anything Jeremiah came running towards us.
"What the fuck is you niggas doing?" Jeremiah Yelled. He looked pissed. One thing about Jeremiah dudes never wanted to fight him. He was into boxing and everybody knew that. He pushed the two out the way and helped me up. The back of my head was bleeding. Jeremiah looked pissed. He turned around and looked at Digs and Punched him right in the nose. Before he could get a chance to punch Skip he took off running. Digs ran off too with blood gushing out of his nose.
"Thank you." I told Jeremiah i didnt know what would have happened if he wouldnt have shown up.
"Look im sorry about how i acted at homecoming. I was drunk and jealous. I feel like this is my fault because i KNEW how Lamar was." He said remorsefully.
"Its Not your fault Jay. I wouldnt have believed you. I was too STUPID to recognize the signs." I told him.
"Well shit let me drive you home cuz' you gon' make me catch a case if these ignorant niggas keep fuckin' with you." He told me. I laughed it was my first time laughing since all this shit has happened. I then thought about my relationship with Jeremiah. He was my freshman and sophmore year boyfriend. He always begged me for sex but i just wasnt ready. That wasnt good enough for him so he started sleeping with other girls. Thats what put the icing on the cake. He could have been my first if he would have just waited. I accepted his offer to take me home. I did not want to take the bus who knew who i would end up running into again. As we were on our way to my house Jeremiah seemed to go on and on.
"I swear im going to kill that grimey ass nigga Lamar." He said with an angry expression on his young looking face.
"Hes gone now so dont worry about it." I was tired of talking about it. Im glad somebody seemed to care about me. I just wanted someone to protect me. My dad seemed to fail at it so maybe Jeremiah could. Pulling me out of my thoughts Jeremiah said,
"I still care about you Larissa. I was young then but now i feel i can give you everything you need."
"Look thats sweet Jay but i need some time alone having a boyfriend again just isnt going to work." I said.
"Lamar wasnt no fucking boyfriend girl!! Give me a chance please." He pleaded. I thought about his gesture. If Jeremiah was my boyfriend again nobody at school would fuck with me.
"Okay Jeremiah." I accepted. He pulled into my apartments and asked if my mom was home. "Nope, want to come in?"
"Yeah!" He said. I knew Jeremiah well i knew he wouldnt try to hurt me. We were on my couch watching T.V like old times. It felt good. I felt like my life was somewhat normal again.
"I know you are going to want to have sex but I really want you to wait until Im ready and i assure you I will be ready one day." I explained. He placed his hand on my chin.
"Baby girl dont worry about that because im not. Besides thats what i got hands for." He said. I laughed so hard this guy was funny. We ended up falling asleep on the couch in eachothers arms. We awoke to my moms loud obnoxious voice.
"Larissa get your muthafuckin ass up!" I jumped up frightened by the sound of her voice. Jeremiah hopped up too. "Hhhi Ms. Patricia." Jeremiah said nervously.
"Oh its only you Jeremiah." My mom said and walked away. Thank god she knew and liked Jeremiah or else i would never hear the end of it.
"I got to go make some moves babe ill call you later." I agreed and gave him a kiss. My dad never called me or came to pick me up. That most definitely pissed me off. I was convinced he only cared about his job.I decided to finish my schooling online it was just too much drama to go to any public school. Lamar was well known and i would be hated anywhere i went. I could not understand why everybody thought that i was the bad guy. Im the fuckin victim.