Deception

Chapter 21: Uh Oh Not Again!

Everything had been going great for me and i was kicking ass in school. If I kept it up ill be able to get into any university i wanted. Somewhere in the middle of my teacher's lecture an over abundance of peppermint filled my nostrils. It made me sick to my stomach. I looked around to figure out who was chewing gum,but what the fuck am I supposed to do make them spit it out? "You dont look so good Rissa." Samantha whispered in my ear. "I dont feel good either." I said. I got up and ran to the bathroom and threw up my breakfast. What in the fuck was going on? I must have caught Jame's stomach bug because he was sick a few days prior. I went back to class still feeling light headed. "Im sorry professor Reed im not feeling well im going to go." I said to my chubby but nice professor. "Ok dear come and see me when you feel better i will have your class notes ready for you." She assured me. "Thank you." I said as i exited the building. On my car ride home i found myself extremely hungry which was normal since I just threw up my breakfast. It was still breakfast time so i went to McDonalds and got 4 breakfast burritos and 2 hashbrowns. I had a craving for syrup so i got a bunch of that too. That portion of food along with the syrup was totally unlike me but i felt like it would be good. It was weird but i shrugged it off. My lease on my apartment was up last month so i ended up moving in with James like he had been begging me to do. To be honest i wasnt disappointed about my decision it was great living with him. I forgot that this particular day he didnt go to work. When i got home I laid my food across the living room table, turned the T.V on and began to chow down like it was my last meal. James came into the living room and saw me eating. He laughed so hard that I thought he was going to piss his pants. "What the fuck is funny?" I snapped with a mouth full of food. "Babe dont eat your fingers." He said still laughing. I then looked at my set up of food and realized what a hog i was being. "Man i threw up my breakfast earlier now im starving so back the fuck off." I defended. "Ew why the hell are you dipping that shit in syrup?" He asked with a disgusted look on his face. "This shit is delicious dont judge me!" I said. "Ight with yo 4 burrito eating self thats a shame." He said laughing and walking away. He was making jokes but hes right it is a shame but owell i was hungry. I was laying in bed with James watching a movie when I started to feel sick again. What in the fuck was going on? I ran to the bathroom and threw up my food again. "I think i caught your stomach bug James." I said as i walked back to the bed. "Damn you need me to get you anything babe?" "No ill be ok i feel fine after i throw up." Interrupting our conversation Samantha called asking me if i was alright. I told her i was and that i would call her back. I tried not to talk to her too much around James because he didnt like her. I just think hes being stupid so i dont argue with him about her. "Who was that?" He asked. "Samantha." I answered in a low tone. "I swear Larissa i do not like that BITCH!" He complained. "Why dont you like her what has she done to you?" I challenged. "Nothing she just seems sneaky and coniving i hope u aint been telling the ho your business." He said. "No of course not!" I said. His yelling at me made me feel like i was going to cry the next thing i knew tears were filling up in my eyes that i could not control. "Girl whats wrong with you?" He asked. "Nothing!" I yelled. "You been real emotional lately and eating up every got damn thing now you throwing up are you pregnant?" He asked me. Pregnant? Again? I dont think so i have been on birth control the whole time James and I had been together. Then i thought back to that dry spell we were having. I wasnt taking my pills regularly because i figured i wasnt getting dick so i really didnt care. I also thought back to that day in Jame's office we did not use protection and I do not recall him pulling out. FUCK! I probably was pregnant. I did not want a kid at all. I just started school. A kid would totally fuck up everything. "Hello? Earth to Larissa." James said waving his hand in my face. "I might be." I said with a long face. "What you sad for girl? This is both of our second chance." He said excitedly. "I dont want a second chance." I whined. "Girl hush lets go to the doctor i dont trust that home pregnancy shit." I hesitated. I did not want to know if i was pregnant or not. I know despite my reservations James would want to keep the baby. I know it had nothing to do with me but everything to do with his ex girlfriend. One thing about James and I losing our children against our will was that one not so good thing we had in common. The difference between us is that I dont want another chance to be a parent and he does. Maybe this is all a coinsidence and i wasnt pregnant and ill be able to go on about my business. These were the thoughts swirling through my mind as we drove to my doctor's office. I submitted a blood sample and a urine sample i wanted to be absolutely sure. As we waited for the results James sat there with a big cheesy grin on his face. "Im going to be a daddy!" He said rubbing my stomach. "No the fuck you arent." I said pushing his hand away from me. He was getting on my nerves we havnt even heard the results yet and his stupid ass was rubbing my stomach. When the doctor came in with that manilla folder a huge lump formed in my throat. "Ms. Watters you are indeed pregnant." The skinny white lady informed. Her words sounded like they were in slow motion. I knew there was nothing i could do about this because this baby was not just mine. "Great." I said in a sarcastic tone of voice. She started giving me a list of vitamins i needed to start taking, foods i couldnt eat, lamaze classes i should take since we are first time parents. James was ecstatic and i was devastated. On the way back home I was trying to fight back my tears. "Larissa What the fuck is your problem you should be happy." James said. "Oh really? I missed that fucking part." I snapped. "Well i dont care you not aborting this baby!" "I never said I was so shut up and drive the fucking car!" James was only thinking about his "2nd chance". He never once thought about or even considered how I could possibly feel. When we returned back to our place i curled up in front of the couch to some Basketball Wives. That show always seemed to make me laugh. James just went in the room and closed the door. It was certain he didnt want me sleeping with him. What a great way to treat your pregnant girlfriend. I had to share my fucked up news with someone so i called Samantha. She was excited to hear I was expecting. Seemed everybody was happy except me. This was going to be a long pregnancy im going to need a miracle to get me through it.