The heart of a poet

Him

She wakes up to his voice, but he isn't there. Feeling the cold breeze of her fan against her feet, they're bare. She feels a tear go down her check, is she really this weak? Picking up her phone and going to her camera, but all she sees is the little hope that's left in her. It always goes wrong so she asks herself "Why can I not conquer love?" And the voice of Sia rings through her head with every breath she takes. The silence as her song no longer plays...and she's reminded of how their love no longer stays. With every blink of her eyes her wet eyelashes stuck together linger and she feels her blood going through her body and wishes it was spilling out instead. Lana's voice asks "Will you still love me when I'm no longer young and beautiful?" And again she thinks of him and the answer is no, for no one can love her if she doesn't love herself.
She finds ways to forget her impenetrable hatred for herself, but She never truly forgets...just the thoughts of sadness and suicide go away for awhile.