Your Life Compared To Mine (Niall Horan fan fiction)

Your Life Compared To Mine 15

I was more surprised that I wasn’t even crying at the moment, the elevator ride seemed like it was taking years, all I wanted to do was get in the car and go home. Lock myself in my house turn all the lights off, close all the blinds and bundle in a ball and not to talk to anyone for as long as I could.

The worst part, my mother didn’t even chase after me or try calling my name to stop, I didn’t hear a sound from that room.

Once the elevators doors dinged open, I walked fast through them and out of the hospital not looking back. All the boys were in a circle talking to one another outside of the car.

“Jeez Iris take a million years why don’t you.” Louis says, I give him a very forced smile and small chuckle, I fumble with the keys as I unlock the driver’s side door. As the door is finally unlocked I press the button as the van clicks and unlocks. The boys all slide in, Liam in the passenger side and everyone else in the back. My hands were still shaking, and I tried to put the keys in the ignition but kept failing every time.

I didn’t want to show them that there was something wrong, because I couldn’t even begin to tell any of them what I just witnessed, I can barely comprehend it. I sigh slightly, and Liam takes the keys from my hands and starts the van for me. I look at him and give him a small smile before backing out of the spot and pulling out of the hospital drive way.

“So what took you so long anyways?” I here Zayn ask from the very back.

I pulled up to the red light, waiting anxiously for it to turn green. “Um, Natalie was just talking to me about some things.” I lied. The light turned a vibrant green, and I turned left onto the street to go home.

“Is everything okay with Phoebe?” Harry then asks, I look at him through the review mirror. Maybe I should tell me what’s really go on, Natalie did say that Phoebe won’t tell them, she doesn’t say a word to anyone about her conditions.

“Guys,” I start as I look back on the road, “Phoebe only has a couple days to live.” I say this quietly regretting it, and not wanting to believe it.

The van stayed quiet for a while, we were already on the freeway, I was going a little over the speed limit, but I didn’t care.

“What do you mean?” It was Liam that spoke first after the very eerie silence.

“She has a very rare disease that should have killed her when she was younger, but for some reason she fought it, and now it’s back.” I look back in the review mirror looking at all of them, they were all staring back at me, with somewhat wide eyes.

Niall shakes his head, “It isn’t funny to mess around like that Iris.”

I roll my eyes, “I’m not messing around Niall.” I snap at him harshly, I pull off the freeway on the right exit, and make another right.

“She was perfectly fine tonight, she was talking and laughing, she isn’t dying.” Niall snaps back at me.

I huff, getting utterly irritated; I didn’t need this right now. “Niall, why would I joke about this. She is dying, unless another miracle happens.” I raise my voice a little bit, to make sure he would just shut up and know that I was being honest.

He stays quiet after this, and I finally am pulling into my neighborhood, the huge houses placed far apart from each other because of their huge lawns and driveways. Hopefully I don’t see my mom when I get home, or my sister, or brothers, I don’t think I could even look at them ever again. More so my mother than any of the others. I doubt that my sister knew anything about it, and my brothers are too dumb to even put two and two together, seems how I was unable to do so.

I still can’t even wrap my fingers around it, he was dead, I was told he was shot in the head at that store. I was never allowed to see his body, simply because my mother said that I wouldn’t be able to handle it. What child would? We never had a funeral because my mother told me that my father always wanted to be cremated, there was no point to have a funeral. But for five years, it’s been hidden that he is alive. I know it was him, I saw his face, there was no doubt in my mind that it was him.

“Iris!”

I step on the breaks as my first reaction. After relaxing there was no one in front of me I turn around wide eyed and furious, “What the hell!” I yell at them all.

“You passed our street a while ago.” Zayn says pointing behind; I turn back around in my seat, looking at all my environments realizing I passed it about two streets back.

“Sorry guys, wasn’t paying attention.” I say making a U-turn and going back to my street.

I finally pulled into my drive way, my mother’s black car was nowhere to be seen, and my car was hidden in the back as usual. I parked the black van next to my car and shut it all down. The boys piled out, walking faster to the door, probably to get away from me. I shut my door, letting a huge breath.

“You okay?” I jump slightly at the voice, I look towards the back of the van to see Liam leaning against with his arms crossed.

“Yup, just tired.” I say giving him another small smile.

“You are such a lair.” He states walking towards me. He puts his arm over my shoulder and drags along with him to my house. We walked silently on the path way to my front door step. I really just wanted him to leave and get away from me before I turned hulk on him and regret saying things to him. But I don’t have the heart to tell him to go away, and the company is kind of nice. We make it under the dim porch light of my front door.

“I’m not going to ask you what’s really wrong because you won’t tell me even if I begged, but sleep well tonight, and if you need anything you know where I am.” Liam says in a hushed voice, he gently rubs my arm, and walks of silently.

I unlock the front door and open, my entire body completely exhausted, my mind even more so. I shut my door lightly behind me and drop my purse and keys on the floor as I drag my feet across the floor and up the stairs.

I make it to my room shutting that door behind me as well, I strip off my clothes and get into something more comfortable, the darkness surrounding me, the only light coming in slightly from the moons light through the barely open curtains of the window. I drew the curtains tighter together, making the room even darker, no light being seen from any corner, I was in the complete darkness my body feels at the moment.

 I draw the covers over my body covering my entire body, not even a thought could be processed through my mind, I was out before I could think of the events that occurred this day.