Eigengrau #TheWattys2K16

E I G H T

Scarlette's POV

"Why do you have to follow them?" I asked Carson as he moved the car very slowly so the boys wouldn't notice us.

"Because I'm curious." he responded with a small devilish laugh.

"Curious of what?" I asked trying not to get snappy but seeing Grayson was the last thing I wanted to do.

"Do I have to have a reason?" Carson asked turning his head back to look at me with a cocked eyebrow.

"No I guess not." I whispered. I laid my head back to just keep calm and try not to get annoyed. I felt the car speed up so I looked up and noticed that he was turning around so we could go a different route to school. "What are you doing?" I asked mostly confused on why he wasn't watching the twins anymore.

"Because I'm tired of watching them. I just want to get to school." he replied with no expression so I just shrugged and waited for the car ride to be over.

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"I'll see you in Physics." Carson said kissing my head before running off with his team. Him and his friends were already practicing for the football team even though it is only the second day of school. I really didn't feel like going to class today so I decided to go to the bathroom for the first half of class.

"Hey what are you doing in here?" I asked Amber as I walked over to the counter and set down my things.

"Just doing my make up since I didn't have time to do it at home." she replied with a smile. "So where were you last night?" she asked and my breath got caught in my throat.

"Uh I ended up staying at a hotel because my dad wanted to be able to know where I was and somehow he can tell when I check in and out of there." I answered trying to not give too much information because that makes it more obvious that I'm lying.

"Oh well do you think you could come over tonight?" she asked with a smirk.

"Yeah I'll just have to text my dad and let him know where I am." I smiled in return before pulling out my phone and texting Ms. Dolan that I would be at Amber's. Amber shoved her make up back in her bag and started to walk out before realizing that I wasn't following. "Aren't you coming?" she asked.

"Nah I don't really feel like going to class today so I'm just skipping the first half of class." I responded and she let out a small laugh.

"Well then I'm skipping with you." she replied walking away from the door and sitting beside me on the floor.

Grayson's POV

After Ethan told me that we would be trying out for the wrestling team I was a little nervous. It sounded like fun but not if it was the wrestling team here at school. I would rather go somewhere where we didn't know anyone but I guess I would have to deal with it.

"Grayson!" Coach yelled, snapping me out of my thoughts.

"Yes sir?" I asked trying to play it off like I was paying attention the entire time but apparently it was obvious I wasn't because everyone started to giggle and snicker.

"Pay attention please." he barked and I nodded my head instead of speaking up again. "Now at the beginning of class we will start with a warm up which will include push ups..." I started to drift away from the lecture and went back to my thoughts.

What if Carson sees that I'm on the team and decides to get on it just to torture me? I can't deal with that not like I did when I tried to be on the football team. I could just feel the fear growing on me and I tried to not let it take over but of course it did. I started to sweat and shiver at the same time. I tried not showing it but when I looked around the room I noticed Toby and Alex looking at me and laughing. I looked in the other direction but noticed other people giving me dirty looks. I looked down at my feet trying not to cry. Why does everyone hate me so much? One tear fell to the ground and I ran for my life to the locker room.

"Where is it?" I asked trying not to cry harder while looking through my bag to find my only get away.

"He's in here." I heard a deep voice say from the door and I nearly jumped out of my skin. 

"Just leave him." I heard Coach reply and the footsteps got quieter.

I continued my search for my get away and finally found it. I locked the stall door and began. I hated the fact that this was the way I coped with everything but I couldn't do anything else. A little blood dripped onto the floor and I quickly wiped it up with a paper towel that I had in my bag. I shoved my get away back in my bag and waited for the bleeding to die down before walking back into the gym.

"Ew it's back." a girl snickered but I just walked to my spot and sat down.

"You should've stayed in there so no one would have to look at you." Carson whispered and I looked up enough to see his face without looking into his eyes. "Look how pathetic it is guys." Carson laughed to a few of the people around us.

"W-" I was cut off by the coach.

"Why do I hear talking?" his voice boomed through the gym.

"Because you have ears you dumb ass bitch." Carson spoke lowly but obviously loud enough for the coach to hear.

"Excuse me? Who just said that?" the coach asked and everyone turned their attention towards me even though I didn't do anything.

"It was him not me! I swear!" I argued pointing to Carson but it was no use.

"Grayson step outside." the coach said and with no argument I got up and walked out the door.

"Why would you say that?" the coach asked as soon as he walked out into the hallway where I was standing and waiting.

"I didn't say that." I said plainly but it wasn't enough.

"Why would Carson say that? He has been nothing but respectful towards me every year I have had you guys. You are the one to zone out and not pay attention in class." the coach argued and I just sighed.

"Fine I did it." I said not feeling like trying to defend myself in any way, shape or form.

"I'll let you off with a warning now go sit back down." the coach sighed and I slugged my way back inside and to my spot. 

As soon as I sat down I knew Carson was laughing at me but I just looked the other way. I thought of the song Dead and Gone by Justin Timberlake and T.I. I looked to the east and saw that no one was on my side, I looked to the west and still no one was on my side, I looked to the north but I had no pill to swallow called pride. I had nothing. I just sat in silence taking in everything everyone said hoping that I wouldn't reach my breaking point.