Scarlette's POV
What the fuck? I have never been so confused in my life. I've never been so hurt in my life. Even when my dad killed my mom, that didn't hurt as bad as this hurts right now. What could I have possibly done wrong?
My phone started ringing and when I noticed it was Carson I sighed then answered.
"What?" I asked simply.
"I'm sorry for what I did earlier, I was just desperate to have you back. Hearing you say how much you loved Grayson made me say stupid things and I apologize." Carson said and I started to cry even more but quietly so Carson wouldn't hear me.
"Don't be sorry you were right." I whispered so he wouldn't hear my crackly voice.
"Wait what?" he asked and I shook my head even though he couldn't see me.
"C- can I come over please?" I asked wiping some tears off my face.
"Of course. I'll unlock the front door." Carson answered then hung up.
I slipped on some shoes and made sure most of the tears were off my face before walking downstairs and out of my house. Instead of taking my dads car which would've been quicker, I decided to walk. On my walk I saw someone walking towards me and it sort of looked like Grayson so I tried to cross the street.
"Woah watch where you're going next time." Ethan said pulling me into his arms so I wouldn't get hit by the passing car.
"Sorry I thought you were Gray." I said giving him a hug.
"I'm so sorry for what he told you. I have absolutely no idea why he would say that." Ethan apologized but I just shook my head.
"Don't apologize for him please." I begged with a faint smile.
"So where are you headed?" he asked walking in the direction I was going earlier.
"I'm going to Carson's house to talk to him about everything that happened these past few weeks." I answered which wasn't a complete lie.
"Hey I know that Gray fucked up but I'm here if you want to talk to someone." Ethan said and I accidentally laughed.
"Why don't you hate me?" I asked with a smile still on my face.
"Because I know you're better than that." Ethan smiled placing a small, friendly kiss on my cheek.
"Okay well this is his house so I'll talk to you later." I said turning towards Ethan and giving him a big hug.
"Bye!" Ethan called out as he jogged down the street.
I walked inside quietly just in case his parents were asleep then I ran up to his room.
"Hey." Carson smiled as he turned down the volume on his t.v.
"Thanks for letting me come over." I said crawling under his covers.
"No problem." he replied.
After watching a few episodes of Friends Carson finally spoke again.
"Hey what did you mean I was right?" he asked which made me furrow my brows.
"What do you mean?" I asked in response.
"Well you said that I was right and I could tell you were crying." Carson answered and I closed my eyes tight so I wouldn't start crying again.
"Uh when you said that Grayson didn't love me, it turns out you were right." I responded letting a few tears slip.
"Dick." Carson whispered.
"Tell me about it." I sighed.
"Do you want to stay here tonight?" Carson suggested while changing into some pajamas.
"Can I?" I asked sitting up and pulling up the covers.
"Yeah why not." he smiled.
He lowered himself back onto the bed and slowly came in for a kiss. Carson then changed his position to hovering over my body.
As soon as he tugged on my shirt I remembered the first time Grayson and I had sex. I quickly pushed Carson off and ran to the side of the room.
"Are you okay?" Carson asked breathing a little bit heavy.
"No I think it's a little too soon." I answered before running out of his room and back to my house.
Grayson's POV
What the fuck is wrong with me? I should've never said that to her. I can't believe I let him get into my head.
"Yo are you still up?" Ethan whispered opening my door slightly.
"Yeah why?" I asked in response.
"You really fucked her up Gray. I know there's probably nothing I can do but I just want you to know what she is doing. She's going to Carson's and I can tell you it's probably not just to talk." Ethan said and for some reason I became enraged.
"Thanks for telling me." I replied. I grabbed my shoes then quickly ran off.
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I got to Scarlette's house and waited outside until I was ready to go in. I finally got the balls to go inside and when I did I went straight to her room.
"I have absolutely nothing to say to you." Scarlette said with so much pain in her voice.
"Can I please explain myself?" I asked and she looked at me like I was insane.
"What could you possibly say that would fix this?" she asked sitting up and sniffling a little.
"What if I told you that I lied? It was all a lie Scarlette trust me I love you more than anyone ever could." I stated but she just rolled her eyes and shook her head.
"God you're an ass Grayson." she replied but I wasn't going to give up.
"Here's what actually happened. Basically after school that day we got back Carson talked to me during last period. He said that if I didn't tell you that I didn't actually love you he would send me to the hospital. I was so scared that that was true so I did as I was told. Trust me it took everything in me to not run into your arms and hug you tighter then ever when I first heard you crying over me." I said which seemed to help a little bit.
"How do I know you're not lying right now?" Scarlette asked looking deeply into my eyes.
"Because of this." I said with a smile.
I walked up to her and kissed her. It wasn't just any kiss though. It was way more meaningful then ever before.
"Did you feel that? Did you feel the fireworks bursting, the flames heating up the room, the butterflies swarming?" I asked and she just smiled and nodded. "Because so did I."
"Please don't ever do that again!" she begged before wrapping her arms around my neck and kissing me passionately.
"I love you baby. I always have and I always will." I whispered on her lips.
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Fanfiction"I'm so sorry." He replied and I let some tears fall even though I didn't really understand why. "GRAYSON WHY ARE YOU SAYING SORRY?!" I screamed begging for an answer. ••• She know she was wrong. Everyday she would let herself...
