Life with Franta

chapter 11

After I woke up from my nap I decided to apologize to Connor for my behavior. It really wasn't a big deal and I know he just wanted for me to be happy but it seemed as if I wasn't making him happy. I walked out in the living room and the only person there was Ricky.

"Hey Ricky," I smiled as I sat down next to him. He set down his laptop on the table and looked at me. He gave me a look as if something bad had happened and I immediately worried.

"Mackenzie..." He trailed off. "We need to talk about Connor." When I heard those words slip out of Ricky's mouth my heart dropped. I thought about all the possibly things that could have happened. One, he either left like I did and stayed with Joey or someone else. Two, he either broke up with me and is taking a break from me. Or three, he got into an accident and tried to kill himself again. Thoughts were rushing through my head making my head hurt.

"What happened?" I choked back. Ricky looked at me with saddend eyes.

"Connor needs help." He began. "Kian took him to the hospital." All of a sudden my heart shattered and I began to cry. What was going on?

"Ricky! What happened!?" I cried out. Ricky pulled me into a tonight hug.

"Connor had a meltdown and ended up getting a little drunk. He flipped out because he found out some things that happened a few days ago and then he tried to drive. We said if he let him he could have ended up killing himself and he said what if I wanted to. We tried to calm him down and he told us exactly how he felt and how sad he's been; how he wishes he could be the best for you and wants to always treat you like a princess. So, Kian said he was going to take him to the doctors and ask if he needs to go to a mental hospital." That made me cry even more.

“Mackenzie do you remember what happened last year?” Ricky asked.

“Depends. A lot happened last year.” I said. I don’t know where Ricky was going on with this but I had no intention of letting him be this slow on telling me. “Can you just tell me.” I said again.

“Okay. Well remember when Connor jumped off the school because you found out about his YouTube secret and he made it a huge deal?” My heart almost stopped when he said that. He couldn’t have. I would have been woken up already.

“No!” I quietly said. Ricky put his hand of my shoulder and shook his head.

“No, he didn’t jump off the building. But he did try and kill himself, I think. We kept telling him to calm down and wait till you wake up for him to tell you how he really felt and then he went to the fridge to get water and came out with a beer. He was confused why it was there and said he wasn’t going to drink it. He asked us why there was one in there and we explained that when Sawyer and Joey came here after his last fight with you there was a little keg and they brought some. He didn’t believe it when we told him and ended up drinking it. Then he said he was going on a drive and Jc snatched the keys away because we didn’t want him driving. He was drunk and started to hit things and he was angry. So, Kian said that he could die and get in a car crash if he did because he was drunk. He told us ‘what if I want to die’ and then he broke down crying. He explained everything that was on his mind and Me, Jc, and Kian all decided that Connor needs help.” Ricky began to explain and I sat there taking in every word he was telling me. I just couldn’t imagine all this happening while I was sleeping.

“What kind of help?” I asked thinking about what I saw Ricky looking up on the computer. I was worried.

“They took him to the doctors and are going to find out if he needs to go to an institution or if he needs medicine or something because lately he’s been acting really different and he isn’t the type of person he’s supposed to me.” Ricky said.