Rude ~ Phan

Determined

I awoke with a start. I immediately thought of my dream and sat up. I realized that Phil was not mine and that he so far he isn't that docile, he's been so rude.

I fee desperate, what does he think of me? I really hope he doesn't think badly of me, I just want to know the amazing human being. Maybe I tend to take things too far but I only messaged him a few times!

I'm overthinking things but this guy has taken over my life. I've watched every single one of his videos at least 10 times and I'm always the first view on his videos. I know almost everything about him, his favorite color is blue, he has the nicest personality ever, and he loves lions and Buffy. I'm devoted to him, couldn't he at least be my friend?

I don't know how to feel. Actually, I do. I'm going to get to know him no matter what. I'm determined to be his friend and when I aim for a target, I always get the bullseye.

Oops, I just realized that I've been sitting in my bed for the past 5 minutes zoning off. I lay back down for a little while and plan out the perfect message to send to Phil.

How about "i watch ur videos and I know u. u aren't a dic-" ugh. This isn't going very well. Can't I just say hi? Or, "this isn't like you come on man", nope that sounds stupid. Ooh, how about "im gonna shake off yesterday, wanna start fresh?" That seems good, it's quick to the point and simple.

I get up to grab breakfast. It's cereal and anime time.

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Okay, take a deep breath. You can do this. You've got it all typed out and now all you have to do is press send! And then throw the phone across the room. Be a man, Daniel.

If you can't tell, I'm having some doubts about messaging Phil. Okay, I'm ready. I press send and wait.

danisaflop: im gonna shake off yesterday, wanna start fresh?

Amazingphil: What I want is for you to leave me alone

Amazingphil: I thought I told you this yesterday?

Amazingphil: FUCK OFF

Amazingphil: and kill yourself too while you're at it.

What the fuck?  What is wrong with him? What did I do to him? I'm going to ask him.

danisaflop: what the hell did I ever do to you?
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I am determined. I will be his friend, even if that means fucking spamming him. I will do whatever it takes because I. Am. Determined.

@danisaflop: @Amazingphil hey

@danisaflop: @Amazingphil hi

@danisaflop: @Amazingphil bonjour

@danisaflop: @Amazingphil salut

@danisaflop: @Amazingphil tungjatjeta

@danisaflop: @Amazingphil hola

@danisaflop: @Amazingphil aloha

@danisaflop: @Amazingphil I'm running out of words pls answer

That should be good for today. I will do this every single day until he gives up. If he blocks me then I will just make a new account. I could do this for forever.

I start to zone out thinking about everything that I will do and then all of a sudden my phone buzzes in my hand.

Amazingphil posted a video: Phil the Viking

I immediately click on it and watch it 3 times. He's so happy and nice, not rude at all! Was he faking it? I don't know, I think I could tell if he were. He seemed genuinely happy in this video, just like the rest of his videos. This is messing with my brain. I will keep spamming him until I get him in as good of a mood as he is in his videos.

Hey! What about now? I grin evilly and scoot a little further down into my couch crease. This is going to be fun.

@danisaflop: @Amazingphil nice video

@danisaflop: @Amazingphil u seemed v happy

@danisaflop: @Amazingphil u wanna be happy towards me? (^O^)

@danisaflop @Amazingphil come on m8

@danisaflop: @Amazingphil u know u want to Viking ;D

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I think that's a good place to stop it on. I have no clue how long these chapters are but I hope they're long enough because I'm tryingggggg.

I also wasn't in a very good mood while writing this so idk

yeah byeeeeeee